Red like roses (Sexual Offenderman Fanfiction)

Chapter 36 - Renovation

It has been almost a year since I woke up from my coma. A year since you all died and the world ended.

I'm not sure why I am writing this. Since none of you tried to contact me in any way, I've assumed you are all dead, so there is no way for you to ever read this. But maybe writing something as a formal good bye will help me move on with my life.

I will bury this letter on the ground, deep in the forest. It will be my little secret. Our secret.

My life at the moment still disconcerts me. It's been so long, yet I still haven't adjusted to my old life, life with the other normal humans. I'm still waiting for you guys to come back to me.

Slender, Splendy, Trender ... Offender.

I miss you all so much. It feels like yesterday you were all here with me, but it also feels like it has been years since I've seen you. 

I have no idea how long I was in the mansion - the weather barely changed there and we never celebrated any holidays. I wish we did. I wish we celebrated any holiday that came when I was there. We could have created more memories together. Happier memories.

When I got free from the hospital and returned back to school, I was welcomed back like a rock star. Suddenly, everyone saw me. I was a real person among them. I even have friends now. People to hang out with. It feels weird, but surprisingly pleasant. At least there is something good about my life at the moment. I don't feel so totally hopeless and alone without you.

I remember that before I started living in the mansion, people were disappearing from my city because of Zalgo. But now, no one has gone missing. It's like those disappearances never happened ... I mean, in a way, none of this ever happened since I seem to have jumped back in time. 

That makes me think if Zalgo is dead, too. But I doubt it, since I can feel his presence. Like he is still alive, inside of me. Or maybe I am just paranoid and only hoping it was all real and not just a daydream of mine.

Halloween is next month and my school is holding a party. One of my classmates asked me to be their date, also confessing their feelings towards me. I was shocked, to be honest. I never thought that someone could like me. You proved me wrong there, Offender.

I sadly had to decline their offer and decided to go to that party alone, with my new friends. I know it's been a year already and I should move on, but ... I can't.

You're my accomplice, after all.

I can't just let someone replace you. I still need more time.

I know now what it truly means to choose one person over the world. What it means to willingly crack the sky open for the one you love.

After all, love is not a choice.

I must end this letter soon. But I just wanted to say that I miss you, guys. All of you. I wouldn't be here without you.

What I mean, is that I actually want to keep living now. I now work harder than ever before to achieve my dreams, thanks to you Slender. I can focus more on positive things instead of holding onto the negative things, thanks to you Splendor, my funny little clown. I've learned to see beauty in everything, even in myself, thanks to you and your awesome fashion sense, Trendy.

What I have learned from you, Offendy, is harder to explain. Even I have a hard time putting it into words. But if I put it simple, you taught me to accept the fact that I am as good as I am. I don't need to change, at all.