Lost

The Growth

we grow everday

i dont mean physically

i mean emotionally and mentally

i grew

fuck did i grow

i grew but not how i wanted to grow

as a child i grew fast

faster than i should have

i became aware of things a child shouldnt be aware of

how did i grow you ask

i grew by taking care of my brother

when i wasnt the one who shouldnt have

he depended on me

i had to be there

to hold him when times were tough for him or us

but who was going to hold me

tell me "its going to be ok. dont worry"

no one did.

i had to hold myself

tell myself its going to be ok.

so i grew emotionally

i learned to give parts of me to others and help

even when i was dying i helped

i grew in ways that an adult was supposed to

I also grew physically.

Im fucking six feet tall.
Too Damn tall
With too many feelings