Please, could you just hold me while tears are falling down my face and i'm slowly suffocating ? Maybe it'll help. Please can you hold me tight enough, to put all the broken pieces together ? Maybe it'll work. Even if you'll never know how bad i feel at night, when it's 1 or 2am and I can't seem to sleep because i'm so tired but sleep isn't the solution and i know it and that's fucked up... please... could you just text me in the morning with a simple "hi" ? Maybe it'll cheer me up.
Just because it's you. I wouldn't care about others, cause they're fake and all i see about them are lies and fake smiles as similar as their "i care about you".
Just because it's you. You don't see how stupid i feel when i realise that you're all i need and how dependent i am of you.
Just because it's you. You can't imagine how i miss you every second when we don't talk and i feel SO dumb because you obviously don't think of me, i probably never cross your mind in the entire day.
And sometimes i want to give up so bad but i think of you, as always, and there is this part of hope in me who says "(s)he won't be able to handle it if something bad happens to you", who forces me to stay here, to stay strong even if i know i'm weak, to stay up even if my legs don't support me anymore.
And sometimes, you say all these cute things that makes me so happy, because my heart really hopes you're saying the truth but my mind is telling me "bullshit, lies, (s)he's lying, it's too perfect to be true, so why would it be real ?"
I so wish you could enter my mind to see what i'm thinking cause apparently, i'm not able to use words to express it.
I so wish you could be here with me, and we would be talking about all and nothing. And even if we don't talk, just staring at each other with a little smile on our faces would be all i ask for.
I so wish i could tell you things like "i'm jealous" or "who's this ?"or "where were you ?" but i just shut up cause you're not mine and i know it would be weird if i said it.
And i know... i know i'm not what YOU are asking for. So i can't.
