Young Sociopath

Ridiculed

Because of my incapacity to care, I tend to have issues with other people. I can manipulate and I can be violent. I don't show these sides much though. Just a intrest in gore and death.
Its hard trying to keep a "social status" with that in your sleeve, so I tend to keep to myself and stay alone. Its just that if you know me you know I like to stay alone and that I'm not one to talk with about moral support. Its very hard for me to understand someone else's pain unless I've personally experianced it.
With other people its more avoidance nowadays. Back when I was smaller I stayed hidden and liked my anti-social behavior. Honestly, I encountered my few cases of being picked on and bullied but It rarely got to me. Infact, it was somewhat funny. These people, these random kids who didn't know me. These kids that didn't know how close I was to hurting them or myself. These kids, where normal.

Humanity can be disgusting sometimes.

How easy it was for them to pass off picking on me as a "friendly gesture" or "just teasing". It was why I targeted them the second they did something. I'd lie. I'd fight. I'd ruin relationships.
To this day I remember the day I destroyed this kids happiness. I'd in one day sabotaged his belongings to break when he touched them, I spread mistrust between his friends, and i told his "girlfriend" that he was cheating and loving other girls. And after all of that? I was happy. For a bit atleast.

I've grown to lose intrest in even personal issues now. If I get shoved I'll give a murderous remark but thats all I'll do now. I'm to tired to do anything. Im bored and tired. Most will avoid me now and when getting into physical confrontation im just bored. I lost a source of happiness. And its all cause of my guardians. The few people that can make my happiness into anger with the drop of a hat.

But they aren't worth the screen I look at, or the words I'm writing.