Stained Sheets

-Eating -

It started with purging, 

finding that sweet spot, 

at the start of my throat that 

made everything feel better. 

I don't know why i did it, 

I can't remember when i started. 

but i know why i started 

It gave made me love my reflection. 

the reflection you made me hate. 

I think you were the first to notice how skinny i had gotten,

you told me I looked better this way, 

cause i looked weaker, 

easier for you to take control over, 

tired of everything, 

willing for anything to happen 

in hopes to die. 

I stopped eating.

I didn't nibble, 

didn't slowly prepare myself, 

I just stopped, entirely. 

i stopped showing up at school, 

i stopped everything. 

i picked up drinking, 

whatever i could get my hands on, 

smoking newports, 

hanging with a bad crowd. 

None as bad as you, 

you were the worst, 

just like this feeling of being trapped. 

the worst. 

just like eating 

the worst.