Muted Words

Unsteady

Life is a literal rollercoaster. We make mistakes, either we learn from them. Or continue to make the same mistakes. Then we're in a loop, of the same mistakes. We fool ourselves believing that we're happy with these mistakes. That this mistakes arent mistakes at all, but a choice, a lifestyle.
But we have to fight, fight to make our life the best we can. If I know a mistake will ruin me for days or weeks to come why do it at all?
We do it believing its for our own good. Believing that the outcome will differ.

We are unsteady, just like the house that was built on sand. No matter how many times you build it on sand, the outcome will never change. That house will fall with a strong gust of wind. It will collapse if a tornado, hurricane, or storm passes through. That sand is our mistakes. We make our life unstable, unsteady.
Fool yourself all you want, but the outcome will never change. It will be the same until the day you change.

The day you allow yourself freedom, from all the pain. That addicting ayou
savoring pain. But that's all its going to be pain, and it can be temporary if we allow it to be. Or we can diminish it completely. The only pain we'll feel is the pain life brings daily. Not the pain you deliberately give yourself.

That addicting pain, won't give you what you need. Just because youve made mistakes in the past, horrific mistakes. It doesn't maks you horrific.

It makes you human. The most beautiful part about being human is that you control the consequences, it being good or bad.

So continue to hurt yourself, but just know you don't need to continuously bring yourself down. Yes karma or whatever you want to call it, WILL come back. The piper will ask for its pay. But why not try to pay for it yourself being being brought to. Maybe we'll never pay for our mistakes.

But it's worth the try....
Fight when you feel like running, but if you love yourself dont let go of that possible steadiness.
Fight for you

~~~I just had to use Unsteady, not only the song but the title itself. Its what describes my emotions entirely in this moment. Hope I'm not too confusing or repetitive. Im sorry if I am! Happy reading... Or depressing whatever you decide! Thanks loves!!!~~~