There's something that I have to tell Liam but never had the courage to tell him. I'm pregnant and i dont know what he'll think. I'm sure he would be happy because that would be his child, but i dont know. He hasn't been here a lot lately and i know why.
Every day he comes home I smell some girls perfume on him. I know he has lots of fans and just by being nice he hugs them. But I have never smelt the same perfume on him as long as i do now. I just hope i'm wrong.
I ran downstairs as carefully as possible and jumped into his arms and hugged his neck. I smelt her again. I don't want to bring it up though I have other things in mind.
Liam- I missed you Me- I missed you too Liam- you look like you gained some in the waist Me- uhh and your point is
Liam- I like it babe Me- what ever Liam- hey um I have something to tell you Me- what's up
Liam- I want to take you out first Me- oh ok does it have to be fancy thought you know I don't like romance Liam- put on something cute but comfortable
I ran upstairs fearful of what we're going to talk about. I don't even want to go. I think he could see it on my face. The way I looked down and looked back up into his eyes, he knows something is wrong.
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Me- I'm ready babe Liam- you look fine Me- thanks cutie
When we got to the restaurant it was really romantic. I thought I told him I didn't want something romantic but it's the thought that counts. The hole time he's been looking nervous the hole night. But I know deep within he has something on his chest and he needs to get it off.
Liam- what's wrong Me- nothing what's wrong with you is the question Liam- there actually is something I want to ask you
Me- sure Liam- so umm you know I've known you sense we were 16 and I'm really glad to say I'm in your life this long. We've been though a lot and getting this far I think you and me both would have never thought we would have made it. So I'm asking you now...
He got on his knees and pulled out a little black box with a ring in it. My mouth dropped wide open. I don't want to marry him. That's like way down the line from now. I don't know if he's doing this to play everything safe or what but I don't like with one bit.
Liam- will you marry me
I could not believe what I'm about to do. I just CAN NOT marry him. I love him a lot but not that much.
Me- I...I... Liam I'm so sorry but I can't Liam- what Me- I can't and honestly I'm confused why your asking me this Liam- why... I don't understand... why would you be confused
I could see the hurt in his eyes. He was trying his best not to cry but he's not doing so good at that. By this time he's sitting back down looking at me.
Me- babe I love you but not that much and tbh I think your cheering on me Liam- why would I do that Me- everyday when you come home late at night you have that same perfume smell and I wonder. I might be wrong but Liam I can't marry you
He put his head down on the table and I could tell he was crying. He doesn't like for me to see him angry or crying but sometimes he just can't help it
Liam- and that's what you think Me- yeah Liam- well yeah I was cheating on you but last night I ended it cause I want to be with you for the rest of my life Me- I have to go
I put money on the table and walked out calling a Uber to come and pick me up. Dang I wish I could've said yes but I know it would've hurt us in the long run.
——————-10 Months Latter——————
I've had my baby a month now and I'm so wishing I never left my best friends house. She helped me take care of the baby and now I'm stressed out of my mind. I just left the drug store to bye gas relievers for infants and I'm stress the fuck out. I'm in here crying wishing she would just go to sleep. Her name is Navia Lesley Payne. As I'm in the car crying it's thundering which is making the situation worse.
Me- Via please be quiet
And still she keeps crying. Out of the blue I hear a knock on my window that scares the shit out of me. I look out the window and I saw that it was Liam. I haven't seen him in like 10 months. I rolled down the window and gave a week smile. He looked at me and back at Navia.
Liam- so I see you have your hands full Me- yeah I do Liam- who's baby Me- why Liam- cause I know you haven't been pregnant Me- uhh you see that's where you're wrong Liam- I don't get it Me- she's ours Liam- are you serious Me- yeah you can follow us home and you can see her and take her home cause I can't take it Liam- that would be amazing Me- ok see ya there
When we got home he was right behind me. I feel bad now that I didn't tell him before she was born but then again he's getting to see her now. Better late then never.
Liam- why are you crying Me- I can't take it anymore Liam- I got her
He got her out the car and held her in his hands. I have never seen that look on his face. Like ever in my life. I don't even know what he's thinking. Navia's crying didn't stop but it got quieter.
Liam- what's wrong with her Me- I don't know but I think it's gas
We went into the house and he gave her the medicine and within 10 minutes she was quiet drinking my breast milk.
Me- thanks Liam- you know I'd do anything for you Me- I know
We both laughed and he began staring at Navia. He smiled smoothing her hair out her face.
Liam- she has your eyes and cute small noes Me- whatever Liam- I can't say that she has my hair cause of the way your hair curls too Me- duh I'm black
Navia Lesley Payne
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