Suicidal. {Yoongi Fanfic}

The Guy on the Bus

{Present Time}

You had took down all letters now, deleted that email.

The bruises on her face and arms from mother were clearly visible.

But it was normal.

It is now been 6 hours since the 'incident.'

Mother had gone to the bar again, to forget my mistake.

You sat on the leather couch in our living room, sighing...school would begin again tomorrow.

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You had soon woke up to the sound of loud, agitating beeping from your alarm clock you'd stupidly put behind your pillow.

You only had 25 minutes to get to school, the bus arriving in specifically 17 minutes.

Rushing, you had quickly washed your face, and dressed all in black, with bag prepped up with a bag of almond nuts to go.

You'd known your dad had come home from work, perhaps sleeping now, and  mom was potentially at the bar again to forget that her daughter is so problematic and brainless.

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You'd found a fairly small seat on the bus, next to a tall guy, wearing a white t-shirt and timberland boots. And you can't help but think....wow....your cramped.

He took up so much space on his seat, his feet crossed over yours , his legs on top of yours and arm around your seat with cheeks only a short distance away.

And with that clear smirk on his face, he could've been doing his on purpose and you were creeped out.

?? Guy on Bus PoV
So here she finally is, hallejuah. I swear she looks exactly like Eunchae when I saw them both in elementary and middle school.

Can I just say MinYoung looks so different, she definitely had a glow up from before oh my gosh.

Could see she got her beetle black hair straightened nicely, losing her glasses, with now it seemed more pale skin. And she'd certainly lost so much weight.

Honestly, with this much of a glow up, it kind of makes me feel bad for bullying her best friend and I'm still deeply guilty Eunchae isn't here anymore.

But those days are over now.
Because of my countless catastrophic issues with hurting someone, my parents decided to let me move to another school, where MinYoung didn't hate my guts anymore, where she eventually didn't recall me.

You may ask why I chose to bully Eunchae. And you have all the right to question.

Here, you see, It may have been quite silly at first but I had had a huge crush on her as a kid, all the way from Elementary School.
I'd always have been excited to see her and MinYoung play around, but I felt definitely more shyer in my younger days to talk to a girl.

So I thought teasing her would make me her center of attention in her mind, drawing is closer and gradually more than friends.

But then the less shy I got to talk to her because I had gotten so used to just simply tease her, the name calling had elevated to be harsher and harsher then realizing Eunchae had taken it seriously and 'poof' she was primarily gone.

From the day she had gone, MinYoung knew something was absolutely wrong, and it had totally been my fault - because it was.
She hated me with such a fierce passion and for the next 5 years of her life, the last words she'd said to me was-

"JEON JUNGKOOK, you know what? I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU SO MUCH, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE LOOKED AT, MY FRIEND IS GONE BECAUSE OF YOUR THINGS YOU CALL JOKES, AND I WISH YOU TO LEAVE N O W."

From then she didn't talk to me and I
heard she struggled to make friends, worrying they'll have the same experience as her friend she didn't protect.

She gave countless icy glares at me in all our encounters in the middle school hallways which where quite frequent then on.

However it didn't have a huge impact on me since I had The Bangtans Boys to help me get through this trauma, then I lost them slowly when I moved middle schools and high schools months later, with only Suga hyung close to my home.

If I'm being honest, I don't know exactly why Suga hyung had went to the same school as MinYoung because his home is totally nearer to the school I'm going to but, whatever.

Since then, I tried to occasionally visit his house, when he wasn't writing his music or sleeping and he kept me updated on MinYoung ; the things in his school, but then he left middle and high school earlier before me so, he's ahead with Jin hyung, Hoseok hyung and Rap Monster hyung all in their Sophomore years in college.

Me now, lately joining in XXXXX High with Jimin hyung and Taehyung hyung in our last Senior year of High School.

Throughout my middle school and 3 high school years, in the different schools I was moved into, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a better person then.

I had been quite the messed up 'playboy' then, dating 14 girls in total.
6 were too boring, 3 weren't my ideal body type and 5 just...really talkative and not obedient at all.

Even now, after middle school and high school, although I am excited I am finally going to meet the boys again, I'm anxious about getting my grades up again and the girl I'm sitting next to on the bus.

With all these memories going through my mind, I didn't even realize I was so close to her, staring for so long.

MinYoung's PoV

When will this creepy guy stop staring, your thought?

Seriously, you were obliged to say something.

"Erm, are you done?"
"Hmm? Oh what? Yes, mianhae."

Then in a matter of seconds, the guy placed his arm back from my chair onto his lap, scooting more to the wall to give me space and legs off mine.

Honestly, if the guy hadn't been acting like this, you would've thought he'd been quite familiarly cute...wait did you really just say that?

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It was finally time at your stop, when you realize this dude was getting off too.

You're actually quite concerned.

Before you'd had any time to worry however, it was there you'd seen someone familiar.

Suga.

Waving at you to come his way.