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I remember that day like the back of my hand. I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I remember that day as if it was my last. I remember the day that I met you, the day you smiled at me. I remember that day because your smile was bright enough to light up my whole world. I remember that day because of the way your eyes lit up when you looked at me. I remember that day because it lead us to today. 

Today is the day I will make you see me the way you did then. Today is the day I will put the light back in your smile, the twinkle back in your eye. Today is the day I will finally make you mine and the day I will finally be able to tell you how I feel. 

I love the way you smile when someone shows you kindness. I love the way you jump around when you are excited. I love the way you look, even when you cry. I love the way you always manage to make me happy. 

I know lately you have been struggling, your parents died recently in an accident. I know it has been hard for you. I know you miss them. 

I'm sorry that I did that to them, I really am. I am sorry my obsession with you got the best of me. I am sorry that I couldn't control myself from taking away who you cared about. I am truly sorry but it will be okay because soon, you will get over it. 

I will help you. I promise. 

I hate the way you are so forgiving of everyone. I hate the way you tease me without knowing. I hate the way he looks at you. I hate the way you look at him. I hate the way you let him touch you, hug you, and hold your hand. 

Today, I am sorry. Today, I couldn't control my obsession with you again. Today, I went into your house. Today, I looked around, mapping every detail of your home in my mind, remembering it. 

Tonight, I will return. Tonight, I will scoop you up into my arms and comfort you. Tonight, I will love you like I have wanted to for so long. Tonight, I will bring you home with me. Tonight... Tonight, you will be mine even if you refuse. 

I am sorry.