Control

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Hours, they passed waiting for you to wake up. 

I sat, waiting. I sat, in a chair in front of you. I sat, watching. I sat, getting impatient for your eyes to open. 

Eyes, you have such beautiful ones. Eyes, my favorite features of yours. Eyes, mine began to get tired. Eyes, yours opened. 

Tears, they began.

I told you it would be okay. I told you I wouldn't hurt you. I told you that I wanted nothing more than to just have a conversation with you. I told you I just wanted to be near you. 

You cried. You looked hurt. You looked scared. You looked.. beautiful.

I didn't want you to be scared. I didn't want you to be hurt. 

I want to protect you. 

You told me that if I had just talked to you like a normal person, we could have been friends. You told me that you were afraid of me. You told me you don't trust me. 

I told you, I love you. 

I moved closer. I brushed your hair out of your face. I smiled. 

You cried. 

I kissed you. 

You bit me until I bled. 

I asked why you wouldn't love me. I ask what made you hate me so much. I asked why you wouldn't accept me. I asked why the hell you insisted on hurting me. 

You told me, you told me you loved someone else. You told me I am crazy.

Control, I lost control. Control of my feelings. 

I cried. I begged for you to just please spend one night with me. I told you it's all I wanted. I promised to treat you like a prince. 

I promised. 

You asked me to untie you, I did. 

I had the upper hand. If you tried anything, I had the upper hand. 

You asked me about myself. You tried to get to know me. You comforted me when I cried about loving you so much. You told me that I have a good heart. You told me you wished we had met some other way. 

I love your kindness. 

You told me you were still scared. You told me that you were scared of me. You told me you were afraid I would hurt you. You told me that you were tired. 

I am sorry. 

I am so sorry. 

I asked you if I could lay with you. Only for tonight. I told you that you could leave in the morning. I meant it. 

You agreed. 

We laid together on the floor of my basement. We listened to music together. We talked. We were so close to each other. 

Your head laid on my chest. Your hand was on my stomach. Your tears were dampening my shirt. Your breathing slowed as you fell asleep. You looked beautiful. 

I lost the upper hand. You had my heart in your hand. 

Control. It took all of my control to respect your boundaries. It took all of my control to treat you as you deserved. 

I carefully removed myself from your embrace while you slept. I carefully placed a kiss to your forehead without waking you. I carefully made my way out of the basement. 

I didn't lock the door. 

Control. It took all of my control to not keep you forever. 

Fear, you feared me. Fear, I feared losing you. Fear, what I felt when I lost control. 

Love, I loved you. I love you now. 

Sick, I wasn't always. 

Fear, I didn't fear dying.

Sorry, is all I wrote in the note I left by the basement door when I left. 

Jump, you would jump when you got excited. I didn't. 

Tied, the noose around my neck. 

Sorry, the word slipped out. 

Park Jimin, I am sorry I loved you. 

Control, I lost it all. Control, my love for you had complete control over me. 

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A/N: This story wasn't even slightly planned out but I hope you enjoyed in anyway. It is simply a short story I wrote within around 2 hours when I had a sudden burt of inspiration. I had no idea it would end up here but hey, it did. I literally just started writing whatever came to mind and this is where that took me. Anyway, thank you <3 ViNN3Y