you are in love (part 4)

empty

its too much pressure 

its starting to ache

when will things get better

i tear myself down

im never my #1

my mids all jumbled

ive tried to get help

but i think ive accepted fate

my shitty life wont change

and someday ill just die

im not sorry bout my honesty

im always fucked up

ive always had too much

i hate living this way

i hate living at all

im empty inside

except for the thoughts

wondering if im good enough

wondering if ive had enough

then filling another glass

im empty inside

except for the alcohol that fills me up

and the smoke sitting in my lungs

ive swallowed all that you know what

i may be hella fucked up

but i still aint a quitter

ill never follow your stupid rules

theres so many things to fuck me up

i cant resist

why is it so tempting

i dont wanna feel empty so i just fill up the cup

that cups been stuck to my hand this whole night

i just cant let go

leave me alone

oh just leave me alone

let me be

im shakin

im achin

im breakin

yeah

i dont wanna live

ill pretend tomorrow doesnt exist cuase im scared

oh im scared

scared to be alive 

but scared to die

but ill never be scared to fill up this cup once more