Hey Baby Girl, I Love You

Better Yourself

There are a few people who have been reading this from the begining and for that I thank you. Most of my relationship with Quinn is on here and it makes me smile to have a record that was written close to the time of the event.

The last update I made was when Quinn and I had been together for 9 months. We are now a week away from being one year. I can't belive I started writing this at 2 months!

Anyway, if you gave read the whole story that is uploaded then you know that Quinn and I suppose I can still say myself, deal with a fair bit of depression and anxiety that type of crap that no one wants to deal with.
Well, tonight Quinn asked me how long it had been since I had hurt myself and I told him about a month. From there we had a conversation on how to help him get over certain things. Those types of conversations are rare. I mean he hardly breaks out of "little talk" except for when he's not okay. I was so happy to hear that he wanted to better himself and actually accept myself. Most of the time he does let me help...actually no. He's very to himself and thats not a bad thing, it can just makes things hard when it comes to funding out what's wrong. But he said that he wants to tell me stuff and help me find out what's wrong so I can help him better. I seriously couldn't ask for anyone better than him. I've told him that I haven't gone anywhere. I have always been here for him no matter what and even when he tried to get rid of himself I didn't leave despite how scared I was. I cant talk since I've done shit too but still. We both stuck around.
I appreciate him more than anything and I am so proud of him. If you get the chance to help someone or influence their life in anyway, go for it or at least try your best. Knowing that I have possibly helped him in some way makes me happy. I know he tries his best with me.
Til next time.....