Okay, so the only reason Im writing about this is because it's something that London and I are often caught up in. I hate saying it but it's true.
I started self-harming when I was nine and and I'm still going almost 6 years later. I think London started this year or last year I cant remember. But the important thing is, we've both done it.
London has said that she's not that great at helping people but she does help me. That's mainly when we are together because just being with her makes me happy. Text is a little different. It can be harder to show your emotions and whats happening might not be as clear. London is very strong. She can go clean for days at a time now and Im honestly very proud of her. Sometimes, things can become too much and we slip up. The fact that tonight, London was doing something other than cutting to try and make herself feel better shows me that she's trying and that proves she is strong.
Anxiety is something that most people feel every now and then but there are people who suffer everyday. Im not entirely sure about London but I get anxious over everything. Whenever London leaves my house or I leave hers, Im scared that next time I see her, she wont love me like she did. I personally have panic attacks often. Recently, it was about 3 a day for almost a week. When London and I started dating she had a panic attack in class. Now, we were in separate classes but I hate the fact that it happened and I wasnt there for her. Its in the past so there isn't a lot I can do but in the future I wanna be there for her, to help her through these things because as I said, I love her very much and it kills me when she's upset. Then again, it's okay to not be okay. That's life. I want London to know that I will be there for her and she can tell me when she isn't okay because something happened that I necessarily dont want happening again. I found out the hard way that London had broken deal between us. It was something that I did understand. So though it hurt, I understood.
Anyway, I just wanted to explain a little bit of that for future references.
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Hey Baby Girl, I Love You
Narrativa generaleThis is the story on how I met the most important person in my life, my girlfriend. I changed her name because there are somethings said that she may not want people to know. I love her more than anything so here it goes😊
