Love of A Bully

Love of A Bully: Part 2

Today has been absolutely the worst. As I was walking home, I tried to drown out all thoughts from today by blasting music in my ears. as I got home, I saw my mom and stepdad, John, in the living room with some other women. "Who's this?" I asked 

"Vanessa, meet your therapist, Nelly," my mom said, smiling. 

"therapist?"

"Yes, we felt that you needed a therapist." my dad said. 

"Hi Vanessa," Nelly said, smiling. she had short blonde hair, was kinda short herself, and was wearing a navy blue dress suit. she walked up to me for a handshake. "well, be meeting twice a week after school, every Monday and Thursday." 

"Uh-huh," I said, faking a smile and nodding my head.  

"Well, I should be going," she said, checking her watch. She grabbed a suitcase and shook hands with my parents. "see you on Thursday, Vanessa," she said as she left. John closed the front door.

"A therapist?? Really??" I said loudly.

"yep," my mom said.

"Why?"

"Take off your bracelets and ask that question again," John said, joining the conversation.

"It's your depression," my mom said.

"and your anxiety-"

"You're always so paranoid-"

"so scared of-"

"OKAY, I get it. I'm a fuck up, and you don't want to deal with it anymore!"

"Language," John said, sitting in his chair.

"and it's not we don't want to deal with it; we don't always know how to help," my mom said, joining him.

"You never did! All you did was send me away, hoping I would but never even really talked to me about it" I left the living room and went straight to mines. I was about to cry, and a few did slip out. it stopped when I blasted my favorite Bring Me The Horizon song, "Drown"

~~~~~~~~The Next Day~~~~~~~~

I actually woke up on time for breakfast this morning. I made eggs and bacon. While I was eating my breakfast, I was on my phone scrolling through Facebook for music and photography news, but of course, I ended up finding something else. BULLYING, not just any bullying, CYBER-BULLYING. I found a picture of me on the floor yesterday after somebody tripped me. I slammed my phone down and continued eating my food. 

I grabbed my bag and went to wait for the bus to drag me to school. Blasting Pierce the Veil in my ears, I see Ashton and his friends. I quickly sit on the bus hoping to avoid him. I got to school on time again, rushing to avoid Ashton. I don't get why he wants to talk to me so bad when I know Claire has said so much shit about me. I get into my math class and completely forgot that he sits next to me.

"Hey," he says, sitting next to me, smiling pretty big.

"Why are you smiling like that?" I said, looking at him

"hey, your speaking to me," I rolled my eyes and took out my geometry book. "you still never told me your name?" now I was tempted to tell him my name. "I'm-"

"I know who you are," I said, cutting him off.

"Alright, class," my professor said, walking into the class

"well," Ashton whispered, " if you don't tell me your name, I'm going to have to start guessing."

"Wheres your girlfriend?" I said with a half-smile

"sick Jessica." when he said Jessica, my half-smiled turned into a full one. I turned to him

"sorry, what?" 

"isn't that your name Isabella?" he said, smiling back.

"wasn't I just Jessica?"

"so it's not Cammy?"

"haha, your really horrible at this," I said, turning back around.

"ill stop Stella," he said, turning back around also, but I knew he wouldn't stop.

"If I tell you my name will you shut up?" he nodded his head quickly. "it's Vanessa." he straightened up when I told him that.

"that's very pretty."

"Thanks, now will you shut up?" we both smiled at each other, and he finally took out his book.

~~~~~~~~LUNCH~~~~~~~

Instead of going to the cafe for lunch, I just skipped and went to the library. Since I had no friends, this was the better thing to do. There were a few other kids here, but it wasn't crowded as usual. 

"Ms. Hunts, your music is too loud." the librarian told me, tapping on my shoulder. I mouthed sorry and continued looking for a book. I eventually found Sins Eater. And saw Ashton?? what was he doing in the library? Alone? I didn't question it and just left it alone. 

I must've fallen asleep in the library because when I woke up, it was 2:30. Holy fuck, I was 30 mins late for class. I quickly grabbed my stuff and rushed out to chemistry. My anxiety started up before I reached the classroom. So I paced around the front door for a little bit before to calm my nerves and stop the shakiness. I walked into class about 5 minutes later.

"Wow, you made it with only 15 mins left." my chem. Teacher said. A few students laughed, and others just stared.

"s-s-sorry" I felt the shaking come back, and I tried to contain it. 

"you get an F for the day, just have a seat," she said, pointing to my seat. As I walked to my seat, I heard small whispers and laughter. I knew they were about me, but I kept my head down as I sat next to Ashton. 

"Hey," he asked, and I slowly raised my head, " you okay?"

"D-don't worry, A-Ashton," one of his friends mocked.

"s-s-s-shes f-fine." another one did the same.

"ignore them" I could ignore what they were saying but what Ashton said caught my attention. Why was he so nice to me?