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Greetings

Greetings, friend.

Now, I know what you must be thinking.

Who am I 

That will come later. For now, let's get to know each other.

I moved to a small town called "Riverdale" to get away from my father. 

He was the strictest person that I know. One small mistake and he would hit me. 

My mother, well, she died of breasts cancer.

My father would always remind me that she deserved it. That I was her fault.

Both my mother and my father had their pros and cons, but they were all that I had.

I will always love them. Even though they weren't the best.

I've never had many friends. The only person that I ever talked to was my mother. 

She always knew what to do when something bad happened.

 She understood me the best. She was my best friend. And now she's gone. 

But that was eight years ago. When I was eight.

God, I've really lost it, haven't I?

 I'm talking to someone that I created.

You're not real and I know that. 

I spend most of my time in my internal library.

I really don't like talking to people. 

My therapist says that I need to boost up my social skills. 

I hate talking to people. But I'm going to a high school. 

A place where that's all that people do. 

Even if you're a loner you will have friends. 

I don't really want friends. I'm fine with my computer and internal thoughts.

But sometimes I really would like someone to cry on.

Someone that would accept me for who I am. 

A mentally insane nobody.

Sometimes I get so lonely that I cry.

I can't hold it in for too long. 

I've never wanted to die though.

Because this world is the same thing isn't it?

We wake up, eat breakfast, go to school, eat lunch, go home, eat dinner, and go to bed.

The cycle of a normal life.

Something that I really wish would never happen to me.

I hate people. I hate society.

I'm not a puppet like the rest of them.

God, I'm going crazy.

So, you want to know who I am that badly?

Fine, Ellie. Ellie Anderson.