bowers gang▪preferences

▪9

Tell me pretty lies, look me in the face tell me, that you love me even though its fake.

The way I'd walk down the hallways, knowing patrick was looking at me, with not love filled but only lust filled eyes.
Id only agreed to this secret dating thing so I could hopefully become closer to the boy I spent years falling in love with, why had i fallen for him? Im not sure. He was psychedelic, hurting everyone and everthing that got in his way. I thought there was another side to him, a side to him that was deeply burrowed under neith his fucked up personality and exterior.

But there wasnt.

I was on my way to the woods to meet up with patrick like I'd promised him as if I didnt, god know what would happen.
I saw him sat on the rocks that where piled next to a big expanse of water me and my friends liked swimming in when it was warm out.
My breath hitched in my throat, as I took him in. He was so effortlessly good looking, his dark hair sat just under neith his fairly thin face, the sun bounced off his locks it making it look soft and shiney.
The sun also illuminated his face shadowing him in the right places carving out his features even more.

"You just gonna stand there and gawk at me or actually make a fucking effort to come over here."
His voice made me jump. I hurriedly made my way over to him trying not to piss him off more than he evidently was.
"Sorry patrick i-"
he cut me off,
"shut up your voice is annoying me."
He placed his thumb and index finger ither side of his nose rubbing them up and down.

I did as he said and sat there listening to the nature that surrounded us,
"I need to talk to you" his voice was low, if he wasnt sat so close i wouldnt of heard it.
I simply nodded and flicked my eyes up to look at his ones, he never usally showed emotion unless he was getting what he wanted, if you get what i mean. But yet they looked tired, drained. As if he had been thinking about somthing non stop.

"You listen to me okay, dont go mouthing off to anyone. Got it."
His eyes went back to there normal pircing stare as I nodded again.
"Good, i thought i should tell you this since where in a relationship and i dont want to lie to you. Last week when you werent able to come due to your dad being the world largest dickbag. I got drunk and stephanie wilson sucked me off."
The hurt that panged my chest was unbareable, but what would i expect. He didnt care about anyones feelings, but it still hurt. It hurt alot. Tears pricked my eyes as i turned my head away.
"Look at me." He grabbed my chin rather harsly casuing me to look at him, another emotion flashed on to his face, guilt. Patrick felt guilty? What the fuck is going on.
"I dont know if can do this patrick. This isnt the first time you've done this now. It hurts you know. How can ou be so inconsiderate oh wait, i know. Because i was foolish enough to think that maybe just maybe you liked me and that i want just an easy bang." Hot tears made there way down my face as i yelled.
"Dont you fucking yell at me bitch."
He shouted back his chest started to heave as did mine from the anger that had built up.
"No Patrick, you fucking listen to me. All i ever wanted was you. Ive turned down so many other genuine, nice boys that would treat me right, for you.
I wouldnt care if you told me pretty lies, looked me in thay face told that you loved me even when we both know its fake."
He didn't say anything, he smashed his lips on to mine, it was weird emontion filled somrhing patrick had shown very little off. I felt warm droplets on my face not from my crying but from, his.

He was crying patrick hockstetter was crying.

We pulled away,
"The reason i told you is because the guilt became to much to bare. I couldnt undertand why i was so pissed at my self for it. And then i saw you the next day y/n. And i realised the reason i didnt get rid of you is because." He paused grabbing my face in his hands.
"Its because i fucking love you, your the first person to ever make me feel worthy of anything. So no I dont have to lie to tell you. I want to hold on to you forever."

"Wow, you dont know how long ive been waiting for you to say that. I love you to hockstetter."
I was wrong there is another side to him, buried deep under his inhumaine ways, but it was there.