IT cast imagines & preferences

mental illnesses (please read.)

so like bc I have a early stage heart murmur and some fucked up thing where I'm liek coughing up blood everymornin & no one knows what the fUckery is going on (lmao I've had medication, ultrasounds, ecg's, blood tests, cbt, they even wanna send me to a theatre to play operation with my body miSS me with that shit)😩😩😩🌈anYway because of all this crap I'm off school for a few days so I'm gunna try hard to update as much as I can even tho all my updates r shit why do y'all bother w me whAt🙅🏼but first I need to have a lil rant about something, pls just swipe on if you get bored I jus wanna get it off my chest aye;;;;

so up there is a lil shot of plain, old me. I'm not gunna say "yikes, I know I cracked your screen" or "yeah I get it I'm fucking stunning" or some stupid shit like that bc I'm not the sort of person to bring myself or anyone else down because of the way they look, I'm also not hyping myself up because although I'm nothing special, I'm me and I'm pretty fucking happy about that shit✨✨so here's me saYing this:

mental health is not something you fucking romanticise. I'm very open about my mental health issues and I don't mind talking about it or answering any questions anyone might have, when I was born every single fuck up gene that could've been spread out to my family I took on me feckin shoulders((for the fAm))

I currently live with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder(ADHD), Oppositional Defiance Disorder(ODD), Secondary Social Deficit(SSD), Autism, Stage two Depression, Anxiety, Passive Paranoia Deficit(PPD), Negative Scenario Placement(NSP), Cognitive Behavioural Disorder(CBD) and Mild Schizophrenia. Guess what babies? That's 10 fucking mental health problems I have and do I think they're 'cute' or 'attractive'? absoLUTELY FUCKING NOT.

I see people request preferences for 'catching you cutting' or 'they see your arm' and honestly, in my complete utter opinion I fucking hate that shit. I, myself feel extremely uncomfortable reading plots that involve self harm let alone writing them as that is without a doubt the most revolting thing anyone could romanticise. it isn't romantic that someone catches you cutting, at fucking all. never fucking ever In the history of every single 'ever' ever said by anyone ever should you harm yourself or even think about harming yourself in anyway shape or form. the life you've been given is a miracle and the most gorgeously amazingly, beautiful one at that. Please don't ever harm yourself because of words said to you or if you find yourself stuck in a negative mindset, I'm telling you now every single one of you are strong enough to fight through that, please don't bring pain to your own body to try and make it go away.

the people I see who use plots in stories that revolve around someone being depressed or having mental issues then miraculously their saved by 'their one true love' that's buLlshit. Mental health is not a nice and attractive trait to have, don't get me wrong no matter what 'issues' you might have in your life, you're all still the most perfect and gorgeous humans you could ever be, there is 5959384729382717% nothing wrong at all with having a mental disability, it just makes you more unique and to your own individual, bUt that does not mean it's anything to romanticise.

I undeniably agree mental health can be helped by people, but it sure as shit cannot he cured. You can't cure mental health issues, sorry but that's life wattpad!1 obviously if you're writing a book, no one expects you to make the oc/oc's perfect but using mental health to romanticise that is honestly disgraceful and completely unrealistic.

I feel like I'm just repeating myself and rambling but I'm kinda shaking as I'm writing this so I'm just gunna stop here, if anyone ever needs to talk about anything I'll listen & attempt to help even tho I can already tell you're strong enough to fight everything by yourself, you gorgeous fucking creations, I love you all insanely!!!💕💞💝💘💖💗💓💚💙💜💞❣️💘💖💓💘💛❤️💓🖤❤️💙💕💘❣️💖💓💖💚💞💝💙💛💛❤️💕💘💕💘💓✨🌴🌈💛💕💖💞💗💜💙❣️💘💚❤️🖤💓🖤💕💖👏💛🌴👏🌈✨🌈✨💕❣️💓💘❣️💘❣️💓💘❣️❤️💝💙🖤💖❣️💕💚