thoughts

Girls or boys?!?

what the fuck is wrong with me??? like do i like girls, do i like boys? like i don't fucking know. it's so fucking confusing at times. i hate it so fucking much whenever my mom says,"oh you are gonna end up with a husband and have kids." like yes i want kids but i don't want a husband. like ughhhh. then again i'm like maybe i do, i don't fucking know. then i can see myself with a girl and spending the rest of my life with her, but for some reason it's wrong. like if i were to really like a girl and can see a long future with her, i would literally buy my own place and live with her and not tell any of my family members about her because i know for a certain fact my mom would not approve.

i could just see myself in a committed relationship with a women, and i see nothing wrong with that. but apparently my mom does. my mom has been very religious and it's difficult at times. like i get it, i believe in god too but there are times where i'm like that's wrong and things shouldn't be that way just cause "god said it is." like there are certain topics that i don't agree with 100%. like the whole thing with gay marriage, the lgbt community, men and women are only allowed to be married. like those things i don't see how if god made us all equal why can't a man love a man of a women love a women and etc. like it just gets me so fucking mad sometimes.