thoughts

am i ever gonna find love??

I feel like I'm going to be single forever and I'm never going to find the right person for me. I know everyone says this. But for real, I feel lonely all the time. I'm so fucking stupid because I literally let the girl of my dreams slip out of my hands and now she has a girlfriend. I hate that I pity myself but its so fucking true. Its true that you value the things you once were given once you have lost them. You see how dumb you are. I hate it, I dont wanna feel like this. I just wish that I didn't let her go. But in reality, its both of our faults because she also let the conversation die. She stopped texting me as well and kinda gave up. She's the one that started with,"You're pretty." With that text it created a whole thing and I fell into her "trap." She's gorgeous and I let her get away. I'm so fucking stupid because she was way out of my league and to get a girl like that you should cherish and keep forever, but I sadly didn't.

But I wanna move on and just focus on myself for a while. If I find love along the way, then so be it. I just know that once I'm with someone I will treat her with the love and respect she deserves. No woman should ever feel like they are not wanted or like they aren't worth anything. Ima make my girl feel like she is the motherfucking queen. She deserves the whole world. I would be the luckiest woman in the whole world to have my baby girl. I wanna be able to do all the good things with her. Like kiss her on the lips. Grab her ass. Play with her hair. Bite her lip. Slap that ass. Tickle her in her weak spots. Make her laugh with my corny jokes. Cuddle her at night. Fuck her til the morning. Make her breakfast. Fuck her on the counter. Bite her neck. Open her legs wide and devour that pussy. Tease her. Make out with those luscious lips of hers. Just the usual. Lmfaoo. I want a girlfriend so badly.