You're at a concert hall waiting for it to start, you looked at the korean staffs nearby and suddenly remembered that one korean boy you shared your memories with.
You were an English teacher at SII College and is teaching english to koreans when one day, this particular student caught your attention. he was so handsome you couldn't really take your eyes off him. he was also really funny and such a dork. So you spent almost half of your time with him. You enjoyed his company and so did he
You both ended up meeting during weekends while you teached him extra english lessons that always ended up with the both of you hudlled together while sleeping. Both of you also often go to picnics and binge-watching dance videos or performances
Soon enough, you knew were falling for him, but you worried. you didn't know if he's feeling the same way. all your coworkers said that he's not that serious or that he has a girlfriend in korea and just one of his pastimes but you knew deep in your heart that he's honest and that he loves you too. That alone was enough to give you courage to confess your feelings to him.
The next morning you called him snd said that you wanted to say something. so you both met up at a cafe and you confessed. he looked happy but I saw sadness in them, and I dont know why.
he said he likes me too, so much.
but you two cant be together. because he's leaving tomorrow to come back home and start his training
'but you can say you wont allow me and i won't go. I can stay here with you, say yes and ill never leave.' he said, desparation clear in his tone.
you looked at him and saw how beautiful his future can turn out if he leaves and how he can't achieve it if you stop him and be selfish.
'No, Im sorry but I cannot let you sacrifice your dreams for me. I love you and I wont be selfish so that I can have you. So I will let you go. I love you okay? so, so much.'
'goodbye, hoseok'
and now you see him, the man you love, the man that broke you and the man that put you back together.
he's performing on stage. he's living his dream. And seeing him makes you feel that letting him go was the best thing to do and all those heartaches were worth it.
You loved each other and that is enough for you.
And you know that in his heart, he loves you. not the love the two of you once shared, but the purest, most profound love of all, the love he has for us, his fans.
