The darkness that swirls

Forever waiting

You know I waited for you, for so long, I thought you'd realize that I was waiting.

I thought you knew, every time I was your shoulder to cry on, I thought it was obvious.

I always tried to make it clear.

I thought I set a fire in your eyes, but now that I think about it, I think it was the reflection of mine.

I think I hoped that maybe one day I'd be your first choice, cross your mind.For you to think of me as much as I think of you.

I Hoped you'd feel the same, or just something more than just a friend towards me, just once.

But now I'm sitting here, looking at the picture you smiling, with so much love in your eyes, and you're looking at them. "god, I wish that was me".

When I look a little closer, I notice something that kills me, stabs and pierces my heart,

Over and over.

A... ring,

An engagement ring.

"God, how could I have been so stupid"

I would have never had a chance with you, I was just destined to be the best friend.

That's all I ever was...

I just wish I realized that before now...

I lived my whole life loving you, and you lived loving someone else... thinking of me only as a friend.

"I hope your happy",

I know I'm not.

I still love you and

I'm sorry...

So here I'll be...

Forever waiting for you to love me...