Heartbreaks and Healers

The Party (part two)

Sorry guys! I forgot to finish this chapter. Anyway, here it is. Enjoy(:

I watch as the officer sighs and another shoves Josh into the car with him glaring at Harry and I. Once all the police have disappeared, I turn to Harry and suddenly feel a ball of tears coming up. He must see tears forming in my eyes because he sighs and embraces me in a bear hug. I wrap my arms around his torso and cry a little, then pull back, wiping my cheeks.

"Why did you help me?" I ask sadly. This thought has been lingering my mind. Could he still love me? Does he just want me to be happy? His deep green eyes linger in mine for a little bit.

"Emma...I need you to understand that I am not capable of not loving you." I says quietly. I look up at him. I don't want to love him. I want to despise him for all he's done to me. I want to slap him and pretend like what he did didn't hurt me...but it did and I need to face it.

"Harry. What you did to me tore me up inside and I'm not going to sit here and pretend that it didn't hurt. Because it hurt really bad. I don't want to love you and I don't want you to love me. I want us to be two separate people..." By now tears are falling down my cheeks again. "But that's impossible for me. I will always love you and that's something I don't understand. I don't want to want to get back together with you but I can't help it." I say and he puts his finger on my chin, lifting it up to look at him. Then he moves his hand so it's caressing my cheek. He slides a piece of hair behind my ear and slowly leans in. I need to stop him, but every bone in my body tells me not to. I need this. I need to kiss him and realize that he's not the one. This night is just confusing me. One minute I want Zayn and the next I need Harry. When his perfect lips touch mine I feel something I haven't felt for a while. Fireworks. The feeling is amazing, like something clicked in me. Just a simple little kiss from him sets me off. God, why am I so attracted to him!? I pull back and put my hand on his arm. I can't look into his eyes...I just can't. Tears start coming back up. I'm just freaked out tonight that's all. I run away to my car and hop in, leaving harry confused and behind. When I start driving, I completely break down because now I'm alone.

Why does Harry have to do that? He breaks my heart and right when I'm about done getting over him, he saves me from being raped.

And Zayn. He's my dream guy. Everything that a girl could want...but is he the one for me. With Zayn I feel happiness...but with harry I feel love.

I don't know who to choose...