I complain a lot.
I sometimes feel like I can't explain myself.
Smoking weed getting caught.
Crying cause I wish I can be tough.
Hoping someday I'll be strong enough.
Wishing I could be in love or have love.
Because now I have trust issues.
I can't feel love anymore don't want to be in love anymore.
cause I just can't go through the same shit I went through before.
So I wish the ones I love away so I don't end up on the bathroom floor.
Not anymore can't anymore.
You feel me.
I say life is hard.
I say I want to die can't live anymore.
Because it's hard breathing and being alive.
I say it's hard being alive when you don't even alive inside.
It's hard being alive when you don't even want to, I can't sit here and lie.
Fucking telling you I'm fine but really I'm not fine.
Telling you life is alright but nah that ain't right.
I have to have a fake smile.
So I won't worry others.
Sometimes I feel like I'm a bother.
I don't even know if my friends even like me anymore.
I was for sure before.
But now I don't know man, why the fuck is life so hard.
Sometimes it feels like my friends are friends with me cause of the drugs.
They probably want it, either that or they feel bad for me.
They probably to pussy to say shit to me.
They probably just don't want to be rude so they keep shit to themselves.
Man I don't know, but I'm for sure they don't like me 🖕🏼
Why does it feel like nobody likes me?
Why does it feel like nobody cares about me.
Why does it feel like I'm just a bother, why am I so dumb, fucking hate myself.
Ever since you left I feel like nobody gives a fuck.
Feel like they just talk to me cause they want the drugs...
I'm known for being that gay emo kid who's in love with drugs.
Who has no friends so she stopped giving love.
To her loved ones and to her gfs and doesn't even give hugs.
Not anymore cause she feels like she's worthless and doesn't deserve hugs.
So she drowns in drugs.
So she doesn't give love.
Doesn't show love.
From the outside she's all tough.
But from the inside she's soft.
Without you I'm lost.
I can't even fucking stand up anymore.
Been over eating cause I'm just so fucking depressed.
I can't do this I'm so fucking stressed.
I'm preaching, I'm crying, I'm pouring my heart through music.
I'm screaming for you but my voice is making you deaf.
Fuck... you left...
Life is hard..
Can't even think anymore, I'm feeling so dark.
Can't even close my eyes and have a decent day cause it's just dark.
Can't even hide my tears cause I'm so alone.
I just wish I could leave because life is so hard now.
It keeps getting worse.
Can I die now?
I never fit in.
I'm that's fat bitch that everyone loves to hate on.
I'm that bitch everyone loves to ignore and I just want to be gone.
I ruined so many of my loved ones life, I just want to alone...
I wish someone cared...
I wish someone can give me a hug and say they're here.
But that'll never happen so I stopped dreaming.
I wish I kept sleeping.
Never wake up just be sleeping.
I don't want them to know about my feelings.
I don't want them to hear my thoughts, or even hear my pain anymore.
Everyone leaves when they're too close to my heart.
Everyone leaves even tho they promised they wouldn't, why break it, why say that?
Y'all ask me what's wrong but I always push you away.
Cause I don't want to be close again..
I don't want to fuck things up again.
Cause life is hard man.
I can't do this anymore I just can't.
Why does it feel like nobody likes me?
Why does it feel like nobody cares about me.
Why does it feel like I'm just a bother, why am I so dumb, fucking hate myself.
Ever since you left I feel like nobody gives a fuck.
Feel like they just talk to me cause they want the drugs...
I'm known for being that gay emo kid who's in love with drugs.
Who has no friends so she stopped giving love.
To her loved ones and to her gfs and doesn't even give hugs.
Not anymore cause she feels like she's worthless and doesn't deserve hugs.
So she drowns in drugs.
So she doesn't give love.
Doesn't show love.
From the outside she's all tough.
But from the inside she's soft.
Without you I'm lost.
I can't even fucking stand up anymore.
Been over eating cause I'm just so fucking depressed.
I can't do this I'm so fucking stressed.
I'm preaching, I'm crying, I'm pouring my heart through music.
I'm screaming for you but my voice is making you deaf.
Fuck... you left...
Life is hard..
Can't even think anymore, I'm feeling so dark.
Can't even close my eyes and have a decent day cause it's just dark.
Can't even hide my tears cause I'm so alone.
I just wish I could leave because life is so hard now.
It keeps getting worse.
Can I die now?
Why does it feel like nobody likes me?
Why does it feel like nobody cares about me.
Why does it feel like I'm just a bother, why am I so dumb, fucking hate myself.
Ever since you left I feel like nobody gives a fuck.
Feel like they just talk to me cause they want the drugs...
I'm known for being that gay emo kid who's in love with drugs.
Who has no friends so she stopped giving love.
To her loved ones and to her gfs and doesn't even give hugs.
Not anymore cause she feels like she's worthless and doesn't deserve hugs.
So she drowns in drugs.
So she doesn't give love.
Doesn't show love.
From the outside she's all tough.
But from the inside she's soft.
Without you I'm lost.
I can't even fucking stand up anymore.
Been over eating cause I'm just so fucking depressed.
I can't do this I'm so fucking stressed.
I'm preaching, I'm crying, I'm pouring my heart through music.
I'm screaming for you but my voice is making you deaf.
Fuck... you left...
Life is hard..
Can't even think anymore, I'm feeling so dark.
Can't even close my eyes and have a decent day cause it's just dark.
Can't even hide my tears cause I'm so alone.
I just wish I could leave because life is so hard now.
It keeps getting worse.
Can I die now?
