I realize I can never let go.
Let go of us or you.
I realize I am a fool.
For loving you.
For loving you.
For wanting you.
For not listening to you.
Sometimes I hate you.
Most times I love you.
Sometimes I want you.
Most times I don't want you.
A lot of times I miss you.
I miss you tho.
I miss you.
I never thought shit would end like this.
You say you let go but how so fast.
How did you let go so fast?
I know you're in the past.
I know we are done but I keep telling myself that you will come back.
Starting fresh again.
I am keeping things to myself, hiding my pain.
That hasn't changed.
Since you've been gone, since you've been gone, things haven't been the same.
Since you've been gone.
Since things are done.
I keep hating on myself for leaving things and being alone.
I keep hating myself, I have regrets, why didn't I just leave you alone.
Why did I have to have a breakdown.
A break down.. yeah.
Christmas is almost near.
You haven't been here..
Didn't hear from you since September.
When I contacted you, it's almost December.
We met in December.
It's almost December.
We met in December.
It's almost December.
We met in December.
It's almost December.
Do you remember.
When we used to stay up all night.
Play gta on Xbox all night.
Remember when we trolled people, or when we laughed and made fun of my ex's.
Remember when you roasted Alex.
Remember when you yelled at her and made fun of Alex.
Remember when you pissed off Alex.
You used to compare yourself to my ex's.
Tell me to get better ones.
You always thought my ex's were ugly except for one.
You always hated on my ex's and I wish you could be one.
Something about you made me forget about my ex's and I don't know how.
I always had trouble getting over them but you some how.
Made me forget about them now.
I don't know them now.
I don't know them now.
I don't care about them now.
Don't even think about them now.
You were so unique.
Funny how you never knew how to say my name "ramneek"
Sorry that I thought you were being mean.
I knew you liked me.
But only as a friend but that's fine with me.
You wanted me to move to Las Vegas.
After everything we went through you know there's still a spot in my heart that's for you.
You're still in my heart, and I guess you'll always be there.
You'll always be on my mind and be in my heart but you'll never ever hurt physically be here.
Or be the one I can go to, even be that great friend I once had but now gone forever.
I realize I can never let go.
Let go of us or you.
I realize I am a fool.
For loving you.
For loving you.
For wanting you.
For not listening to you.
Sometimes I hate you.
Most times I love you.
Sometimes I want you.
Most times I don't want you.
A lot of times I miss you.
I miss you tho.
I miss you.
I never thought shit would end like this.
You say you let go but how so fast.
How did you let go so fast?
I know you're in the past.
I know we are done but I keep telling myself that you will come back.
Starting fresh again.
I am keeping things to myself, hiding my pain.
That hasn't changed.
Since you've been gone, since you've been gone, things haven't been the same.
Since you've been gone.
Since things are done.
I keep hating on myself for leaving things and being alone.
I keep hating myself, I have regrets, why didn't I just leave you alone.
Why did I have to have a breakdown.
A break down.. yeah.
I just want to hide the pain by getting drunk.
Maybe high as fuck.
I've been planning to end all of this by Christmas because it's too much.
I never deserved you.
I guess you were too good for me, thank god you left.
Cause I always put you through bullshit.
I always stressed you out.
I'm so sorry for doing that.
I never wanted to hurt I always wanted you back.
And I'm thankful for having you for these couple of months even tho it was bad.
Even tho I lost you so many times but it's okay.
It's almost December we met in December now that's all thrown away.
Fuck I hate throwing these memories away.
I know I only knew you on Xbox but you still made me smile everyday.
You still made me feel safe and calm every single day.
You always made me laugh and feel a type of way.
December is going to suck...
December...
I don't even celebrate Christmas anymore because it reminds me of you.
I do get shit but I don't say presents, I don't even like saying merry Christmas too.
I don't even like looking at decorations cause I end up crying over you.
Everything reminds me of you.
Still hurt things are over forever now.
I still think about you.
I miss you... I hate thinking about you..
December... fuck you...
I realize I can never let go.
Let go of us or you.
I realize I am a fool.
For loving you.
For loving you.
For wanting you.
For not listening to you.
Sometimes I hate you.
Most times I love you.
Sometimes I want you.
Most times I don't want you.
A lot of times I miss you.
I miss you tho.
I miss you.
I never thought shit would end like this.
You say you let go but how so fast.
How did you let go so fast?
I know you're in the past.
I know we are done but I keep telling myself that you will come back.
Starting fresh again.
I am keeping things to myself, hiding my pain.
That hasn't changed.
Since you've been gone, since you've been gone, things haven't been the same.
Since you've been gone.
Since things are done.
I keep hating on myself for leaving things and being alone.
I keep hating myself, I have regrets, why didn't I just leave you alone.
Why did I have to have a breakdown.
A break down.. yeah.
I realize I can never let go.
Let go of us or you.
I realize I am a fool.
For loving you.
For loving you.
For wanting you.
For not listening to you.
Sometimes I hate you.
Most times I love you.
Sometimes I want you.
Most times I don't want you.
A lot of times I miss you.
I miss you tho.
I miss you.
I never thought shit would end like this.
You say you let go but how so fast.
How did you let go so fast?
I know you're in the past.
I know we are done but I keep telling myself that you will come back.
Starting fresh again.
I am keeping things to myself, hiding my pain.
That hasn't changed.
Since you've been gone, since you've been gone, things haven't been the same.
Since you've been gone.
Since things are done.
I keep hating on myself for leaving things and being alone.
I keep hating myself, I have regrets, why didn't I just leave you alone.
Why did I have to have a breakdown.
A break down.. yeah.
