Tuesday, May 18th, 2010 12:55 a.m.
I just had a nightmare. Well, in my nightmare, I was being viciously beat. Most people wake up before they die in their nightmares. I don't. It really scares me.
I'm Going Back to Bed,
Quigley.
Wednesday, May 19th, 2010 2:54 p.m.
I didn't go to school today. Micah and I skipped. Her cat died. My mom was mad but why would I not be there to support the best of my best friends?! I love Micah to death.
I hope Micah is OK,
Quigley Grovewood
Thursday, May 20th, 2010 6:44 p.m.
OH MY GOSH! I AM EXTREMELY HAPPY! PRESTON AND I ARE LAB PARTNERS FOR A HEALTH CLASS PROJECT! I guess I shouldn't be so happy though. We have to do an essay on how reproduction works. Hoorah.
With Love,
Quigs
Friday, May 21st, 2010 10:01 p.m.
Sorry my entries have been short lately, diary. I guess I've been a little depressed besides the Preston thing. So many things are going wrong in school. I got made fun of today for my outfit. I thought it was cute. I was wearing shorts with overall straps and a shirt tucked in to the shorts. But that idiotic "popular" girl, Leslie, decided to get my whole science class to make fun of me. I hate her with a burning, fiery passion.
Ugh,
Quigley L
Saturday, May 22nd 2010 4:32 p.m.
I was invited to a party today! Besides my few close friends Micah, Dallas, Kate, Brenna, Kassi, Sophi, and Mandii, I've never been invited to any other parties! And this one will be big. I'm psyched. Plus, there will be lots of boys and Preston will be there! <3
Excitedly Closing,
Quigley.
Sunday, May 23rd 2010 5:30
Yes! Only a half an hour until the party! There will be beer and marijuana. I'm kind of worried about that but I know that I would never give in to doing that. Well, at least I think.
Best Wishes,
Quigley.
Monday, May 24th 2010 2:47 a.m.
I just got back from the party. Diary, please help me! I gave in. I had a few drinks. They pressured me to do it. Luckily, I didn't try any marijuana. OK, I guess I have to confess something. I don't know where to begin. Well, Micah turned on me and told Leslie that I liked Preston! I refuse to talk to Micah now. That's definitely not the worst of it though, diary. We played Truth or Dare. Everyone picked dare and I wanted to fit in so I picked dare, too. I'm sorry I did. Leslie dared Preston and I to have "sexual intercourse" in front of everyone. I was extremely mad and hurt that anyone would ever dare us to do such a thing. Preston was completely drunk so he was all for it. But I was almost sober. I was miserable. I glanced at Micah with tears in my eyes and she looked like she felt really sorry for me, but she wouldn't protest. That was her last chance to save our friendship. I glared at her after that. I knew that if I did this, it would change my life forever, but I had to. I couldn't make myself look like a baby in front of almost the whole grade. So Preston and I walked to the middle of the circle. It was extremely awkward as everyone started ripping off our clothes to make me get on with it. I leaned in to kiss him and then it just happened. The condom that Leslie "kindly" provided snapped and is now somewhere lurking in my body. I guess I won't get into any other details. As much as I hate that I did this now, I really loved it at the moment. I really hope I'm not pregnant. Please God, don't let this happen to me. I'm sorry Lord. Honestly.
I'm In Real Deep Water,
Quigley Future Fider?
Tuesday, May 25th 2010 1:45 p.m.
I called Preston today. We both didn't go to school. I faked a headache. Preston came over while my mom was at work. We discussed what happened two nights ago. He said that although it felt right, he was drunk, so he didn't know for sure if he wanted to be with me. I told him that it was OK- whatever he chose to do. He leaned in and hugged me. I felt sparks fly but he just shrugged. He said it didn't feel right. Of course. We also discussed the fact that I could be pregnant. I started to cry and he looked like he was in pain, too. We decided that in about a week he would go to the doctors with me to get tested. I have a feeling that we will be spending a lot of time together in the next few months. I don't know whether this feeling is good or bad.
Still in Shock,
Quig (I'M SO CONFUSED!) ley
