The Bet.

generally,

Hi, my name is Eva. I live in this city of this country, that's not important. You see, my parents are freaking amazing. They are good hearted people and really supportive of me. I also have two sisters that are younger than me. That's also not important. There's so many things to tell you but it's getting boring and i don't like talking about myself. I guess imma fall asleep. Juuust kidding. You're here for a reason. Reading the last 2 sentences, you realized that I don't like myself and I really love sleeping.

Summer 2017 was the best and the worst period of these 16 years that I've been on this planet. I'll get on that later. My best friend Anna, tried her best keeping me happy. She was pretty successful I could say. My circle -let's call it- is pretty close. Small. So tight. So small. It actually, only included two people. My best friend and my ex. I'll get on that later.

If i had to describe myself in a few words, I would probably say...  I'm a small brunette person that unfortunately has a baby face and looks underage. I eat a lot because food is happiness to me but I am skinny, high metabolism, i guess. i really like coffee. I mostly listen to alternative rock and punk music and overthinking hurts my brain. I'm not an outgoing person and that goes well with the fact that i'm super shy. you see, there's many details you need to know about my personality to get the whole story, but guess what. I'll get on that later.

Generally, I was sad, my ex came into my life, I was happier than ever, we broke up, I was an absolute mess, Anna was by my side, introduced me to some of her friends and that's where Gregorian and Anna Number 2 two joined my life. Gregorian is a long ass name so we just call him G. To separate the two Annas from one another we also call my best friend by her last name which is Rose, and the other Anna just goes by Anna. Did you get anything? I'm not a good story teller. I hope you get into the point as we go. In contrast of me, Anna and G where the popular kids of the city so it took me some time to feel comfortable and be myself around them.

Year 2015, was the worst year of my life. I was struggling with self-hate, anxiety, depression, I had non-stop headaches for the whole year to the point where I turned to selfharming which is a dark detail about me that only my ex boyfriend knows. In general, it was tough. Then April, 2016, him, Chris, came into my life and the whole world became colorful. You may think it's stupid, at such a young age, but it was love. Actual, unconditional love. He kissed my forehead and it was like he kissed the pain away. It was perfect. Or that's was I thought. You see all these health problems made me so angry and I was grumpy and moody all the time. We lasted a little longer than a year. I don't blame him for leaving. I completely understand. I wish nothing but happiness for him because he is the best person that I ever met and he literally deserves the whole world. Though, he lost the best part of me. He made me realize that I'm actually worth. He loved me so much that I started to love myself too. June 2017 was when we broke up. I was throwing up for 3 days. I didn't eat anything for a week. I didn't sleep. I was blowing up his phone. My parents were freaking out. It was rough. I decided stop. He didn't deserve me. He was too good. I slowly gained my appetite back and started gaining the kilos I'd lost from not eating. Then, we all four (Anna, Rose, G and I) started hanging out together and I finally started feeling myself again. I now got into it. All of it. That's how summer 2017 was the best and the worst simultaneously.

Never did I thought, what was going to happen.