I have given up hope
It has actually been gone for some time now
I always thought angels never existed
Because the whole world is filled with nothing but demons
Maybe all the angels died out
An angel visited me one day, a beautiful one
Darkness was lifted from my world from that moment onward
Everything changed, but it would last forever
Lately the angel has been distant, and sad
Years pass, the angel is gone forever
Now my world is in darkness again, waiting to see if she returns
It was my fault she left
She came to me expecting something great
But since the whole world was filled with demons
I too, was one
She saw who i was
What was wrong with me
She did not want that
She wanted more
I told her i can be what she wanted, i could change
I didn't
I thought if the angel loved me enough, it wouldn't matter
It did
The angel did love me, but she was smart
She knew what she wanted
She wanted me, but a different version of me
A version i don't know how to create
I was scared to change
Change is hard and takes time
The angel gave me chances to change
But i didn't take them
I was stupid for not taking them
Now she's gone
Forever
I yearn for her to return
Every second of every day i think about her
She was, and still, perfect
I didn't deserve that
I was beneath her
She was too good for me
Now here i sit, wishing of what was
Wishing of the times that are nothing more than a memory
Memories that are better off forgotten at this point
If i ever see her again
I don't know how i'd handle myself
She's better off without me
I was a huge weight on her shoulders
And now it's lifted
Don't cry
Don't be upset
Sweet angel, you never hurt me
I was the one, unknowingly hurting you
Be happy that that pain is gone
Be happy and live your life
Don't worry about me
Time doesn't heal wounds
It's what you do with that time that matters.
