This may or may not be a triggering for you so I warned ya
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Your pov:
Four in the morning, staring at the ceiling .On my own, like I was last weekend
I was alone staring at the ceiling Joe and I got into a argument it was a bad one,so bad that we well...
Broke up.
I have been alone since last weekend I'm so lost and alone without him I just miss him
"Oh god" I said as I cried
Why me?
Joe's pov;
You left and I guess you had your reasons.Guess you had your reasons, yeah I said things and I didn't really mean them. Kept going till I saw your heart bleeding
I ruined everything I lost her she left and I perfectly understand that I was horrible to her and I just kept going until I saw the hurt and fear in her eyes
"But I kept going until I saw your heart bleeding" I said between sobs
Ruining the only thing I ever believed in
Ever believed in, yeah
I am broken
I'm scared
I hate myself
I ruined everything
And even worse I ruined a thing I believed in
Your pov:
And even though you're gone
I'm gonna pretend there's nothing wrong
Everyone are asking me if I'm okay I pretend and damn I deserve a Oscar for that
I miss him badly even tho he said word that hurt me
3 years is what I gave him and I wanted a future with him and still want
Joe's pov
I'm f***ing every girl that comes along
Anything is better than to face up to reality, oh
I have slept with many girls to cover the scars of my heart but I hate myself after every girl so I found a way
I started cutting
More everyday
" oh Y/N " I cried
Your pov:
This is my version of heartbreak
This is how I get over you. I don't wanna feel. I don't wanna feel
I have been crying a lot I miss him so much
Zoe has been there and I thank god for her she's my shoulder to cry on and a best friend
I haven't talked to anyone but her
I haven't been eating a lot but I try I just need joe in my life
10 years of a friendship and 3 years in a relationship so he's a big part In my life
Or was...
Joe's pov:
This is my version of heartbreak
And it's all I know how to do
I don't wanna feel like there's anymore
This is my version of a heartbreak
I'm with the boys and we are drinking I keep my fake smile
The boys think that I have forgotten her or at least moved on but god I need her in my life
She's beautiful and amazing
Her smile lights up my world and her laugh it's still in my mind and how she thinks about others before she thinks about herself god I love her
Your pov:
Clothes on the floor, yeah and the beds all mine. And staying out 'till the sun starts rising
My everyday clothes are on the floor my phone is on silent and my mind is somewhere else
It's weird to have a bed all to yourself it's big and cold
The sun started to rise slowly
"How long have I been here" I asked my self as I got up I looked in the mirror
" no wonder why he said those word to me I'm ugly and just a no" I cried " get yourself together Y/N" I said to myself as I started the shower
Joe's pov:
Free as a bird but I'm still not flying
God, I'm trying, yeah
I'm free like a bird but I still can't fly I'm still in the ground in my little egg after
Y/N left I mutter 3 words I tell myself everyday
"God, I'm trying" I say as I look up to the sky
And the worst part that kills me everyday is the day we argued I was gonna propose to her it took me 3 weeks to find the perfect ring
A tear ran down and as more I thought about my proposal the more the tears come
I look around
OMG there she is at a pub she is looking beautiful as ever I got to talk to her just gonna say hi
I started to speed walk until I saw a something terrible so horrible that sobs started to come out it can't be
NO!
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I'm sorry I left you on cliffhanger I'm soooo sorry
Stay tuned love you guys
