Hope you like this one took me some time but enjoy ❤️
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Stone cold, stone cold
I feel stone cold
I walked out of Joes apartment exactly 5 months ago
And now I'm here at a party that Alfie put together for Zoe's birthday
And yeah I'm with KSI and Joes here.
You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor
I just stand there not knowing what to do.
KSI is standing by my side talking to me but my focus is on Joe. He's with someone.
He looks my way and gave me a half happy and half awkward smile
I felt happy, well on the outside but in the inside I'm dying
Stone cold, stone cold
Every time I see him I feel guilty
For leaving him without letting him tell his side of the story
So I'm stone cold at this stupid party
Maybe if I don't cry, I won't feel anymore
I excused myself from my boyfriend and went to the bathroom
I cried
And cried
Why was I so stupid to leave him just like that
I'm not even happy with KSI and never will or maybe I can be
I don't even know anymore
I whipped my eyes and put some make up on so it didn't look like I've been crying
Stone cold, baby
The girl I saw Joe with pushed me when I was leaving.She's smiling.
" I'm so sorry omg are you okay?"
She asked worried
" I'm okay"
When In reality I'm dying
" oh I'm so rude my name is Jolene "
"Y/N"
"Oh you're..."
She couldn't finish I walked away I just can't take it
I know I'm stone cold
God knows I try to feel happy for you
(1 month later)
1 month since the birthday party
1 month since I saw Joe
1 month since I saw Joes new girl....Jolene
I try to feel happy for him but I just can't I was so stupid I still cry sometimes
I didn't know you could love someone so much!
I don't even know about mine and KSI relationship
"He's happier" I told myself for the fifth time but it can't get inside of my head
Know that I am, even if I can't understand
I tried everything to forget him
He was one in a million
But I just don't understand how stupid I was
And joe he was hanging out more and more with B/F/N back when we dated
