Beast Of A Burden

2) Reality

Nicole aka Mrs.Dayna Pov;

I pulled into the drive way of our house taking a deep sigh. I already knew what tonight would consist of so i wasn't happy nor prepared for it. I unlocked the door & walked in, he was sitting on the couch watching basketball on the huge plasma tv &

Drinking beer as usual. I took off my heels & headed upstairs not speaking to him, hoping he would do the same. Right when i was about to go the steps he said...

"Were you been Nicole You got off of work 40 mins ago & it only takes 20-30 to get home so were you been?"

"Really Mark! I was at work for 10 exta minuets big whoop!"

"You know how i feel about you coming home ON TIME"

he gritted

"& yet you come 10minuets late & it is a big deal because YOUR MY WIFE BITCH"

he said while grabbing hold of my neck lifting me off the ground.

"pl-ease stop Mark"

i said in a hushed tone because of the lack of oxygen i was getting.

"Are you cheating on me nicki?"

He said with confused eyes.

"No ba-by No i would nev-er i pr-omise, ple-ase let me go"

he let go & looked me in the eyes giving me a desperate kiss, i didn't want to give in but I Did anyway just so he wouldn't get angrier.

"I lo-vve you so much im sorry baby i didn't mean to hurt you, but you always PUSH ME"

he gritted from his teeth

"Im sorry.." I said in a low tone

"Pf, sorry excuse for a damn wife...Now take yo ass to bed i ain't even hungry no more"

he said under his breath as
I walked up the stairs obeying his orders & went inside "My" room. Yes, were married & don't share a room. At first mark only made me sleep in here after he would hit me so he wouldn't see the damage he cause on me & feel guilty. But now its a every night thing probably because i get he always finds the energy to hit me when i come home. For the first months of are marriage he was great, everything i ever wanted in a man. Now he's just this overprotective, drunk, who beats his wife for fun. Im just counting down the days til i break & end this whole marriage.

I showered & cleaned up my throat from Mark chokeing me. It wasn't as bad as usual, just a little shade of purple i had to remind myself to get some more foundation for my scars & bruises. I got into bed & drifted off into a well needed sleep.

Chris Pov;

Once we got home after running some after-school errands we ate dinner & it was almost 7:30 so i gave livia a bath. She used the toilet so no mid-night accidents would happen & off to bed she went.

I was laying in bed in deep thought...was i really excited for her to come? Is it wrong? I shouldn't be moving on from renee should I?...its been 4 years & i've never been attracted to another woman other than renee...Maybe this was a sign? Or probably my sex drive getting overwhelmed from not having sex in 4 years...would renee be happy i've finally found peace?...No she probably still hates me...

While i was thinking i held her ring in my hand just looking at it...When she died i kept all her favorite jewelry here. I never sold it,Packed it up or Gave it away...What kills me is she knew she had cancer...why didn't she tell me. We'd known each other for 10 years & not 1 time did she mention she was sick ,but Renee had it all figured out...She'd already had her will set up & just like her, Every detail of what she wanted to be done about the things in her life including me & livia were in her will. She said she wanted our child's name to be "Olivia Mariah Adkins" she said she wanted me to raise her & give her everything i knew she would do for livia & i was trying my best to do so...

***FlashBack***

I sat their holding livia as the lady read off the last part of Renee's will to me & her family before the funeral.

She said

"Chris,You know how much i love you & I'm so sorry for not telling you about this but i didn't want you to worry about me. I knew this was coming so i want you to take care of her, make sure she knows who i am & most importantly, you know the necklace silver tiny necklace in my jewelry Box? give it to her. I got it just for my baby & i want her to have it. And 1 more thing chris...Don't be sad, don't dwell on me being gone baby...If theirs 1 thing i want from you it is for you to be happy. I know you'll miss me but I'm ALWAYS going to be watching over ya'll so anytime you miss me just know I'm their.

Ps: don't feed our baby ANY of your cooking until someone teaches you how to cook okay,& i love you guy's with all my heart so never forget that!"

**Flashback over**

the day of her funeral i made a promise to her i'd never break. I stood over her casket & said

"I promise that i'll be happy. Ima miss you so much but Ima get through it, not for me but for Livia ima be the best daddy i can possibly be & ima be strong i can do this by myself. Ima find peace...i dont know where,or how but, you'll always be my first love & the love of my life & I'm sorry for all the things i've done to you & if i ever find a love like you again,...i'll be the best husband or boyfriend i can be... I promise you that & I'm really sorry...i love you so much...bye."

I sighed & grabbed my phone & Nicoles number. If i wanted to find peace i have to go looking right!? I typed her a quick message & dosed off to sleep waiting for a reply...

Nicole or Mrs.Dayna Pov;

I felt my phone vibrate under the pillow. I wondered who decided to txt me cause its not like, i have friends other than teachers at the school but i grabbed my phone & the message was from an unknown number...but i had a clue as to who it was... I pressed it & it said...

"GoodNight Beautiful..."

I smiled big & started to get butterflies in my stomach...should i really be feeling this way towards another man...I'm married,but is it really a marriage if your not happy?