My Dearest, Finn

1: Stranger

My dearest, Finnlard

When I first met you, we were Stranger's

But, I'm more then aware how you feel about me.

I'm more then aware about where I stand with you.

And most importantly, I'm more than aware that I meant absolutely nothing to you.

That month I met you, my best friend, Sadie Sink, had became really toxic.

She always yelled and told me she was gonna kill herself if I didn't do whatever it is she asked.

She blackmailed me, telling me she'd tell the whole school about my sexuality.

I finally cut her off, but with that I became closer friends with Wyatt Oleff.

I had met Wyatt in summer camp a couple years back but we were never really friends.

However, he also knew Sadie and was being affected by her.

Wyatt also had some other friends.

Jaedan, Sophia, and Jeremy.

I became closer with them all.

We always hung out, ate lunch together.

It was..fun!

But, we met cause you had a crush on Wyatt.

He would always talk about it, how disgusting you were.

I went along with it but..I thought you were cute.

That glimmer in your eye whenever you got excited.

How high your voice got when you were interested.

You weren't gross, or weird.

You were just, the dude that sat behind at lunch. Or the dude that knew my best friend.

Ellie.

Ellie is my best friend. She's smart and funny.

Many don't agree with me on that..but I think she is!

I remember, she told me about you once.

I shrugged it off.

"That's cool."

And that was it. That's the only time I heard of you from her.

I wish I wouldn't have started talking to you.

I wish we never sat by each other.

I wish you stayed "the boy that sits behind me"

Cause god dammit.

I wouldn't be writing this if I'd never met you.