My Dearest, Finn

3.Crush

You were my first actual crush.

Yeah, I liked other people in the past.

But you were so much different.

We talked every day.

Our text conversations at unholy hours of the night.

All I did was talk about you.

To anyone that would listen.

"Finn is so cute."

People would laugh at me.

"Ew, why Finn? He's a fuck boy! Why date him when you could date Chosen?!"

I didn't care.

I ignored them.

I wish I wouldn't have.

I wish I wouldn't have let myself fall for you.

I texted you later that week.

[Hi Finny, can I talk to you?]

[I'm kinda busy rn, sometime after 8]

[Sure!]

This was it. I was gonna ask you out, tell you to make up your mind.

You texted back at 9:32.

[What's up?]

I layed it all on the line.

What you said broke me.

You fucking broke me.

[Sorry, I have a girlfriend. Her name is Millie.]

I cried.

And I cried and I cried.

I texted Jaedan.

[Jack, honestly I don't think she's real. He won't give anyone details on who she is or anything like that]

That hurt even worse.

You were lying.

Dating me is so bad, you made up a fake fucking girlfriend.

I was done.

That was it.

They were right.

You're a prick.