repeating apologies

I'll give you my all

Why does this feeling has to come to me. I like Austin a lot, he's a great guy I just can't believe that he's mine, can't believe that he's choose me am I dreaming, please someone wake me up.

......is this a dream.......

I don't know how to act towards the negative comments on Facebook, or when ever I go on twitter, or on the rest of the social media

I posted a picture of me and Austin on Facebook, I got this negative comment it said

[Lillyanna your only this for publicity, you will get over it and just break up with him and when he's single once again I will go after him]

I reply to it the comment [we'll I don't think will happen I'm not fucken doing this publicity , I really do like him and that's that and you fucken scank your the one that  goes fuck the next guy that passes your fucken path shit just leave us alone]

I showed Austin one negative comment that someone posted on instagram it was a picture of us kissing it said

[what the fuck, you Lillyanna are a fucken hoe, your just playing with Austin Carlile feelings, shit he doesn't need that, what the fuck Lillyanna that's not cute not even for you what the fuck get the fuck out of here with fucken slut, and leave Austin Carlile alone]

it's unfair it's not my fault that he picked me, I reply to the comment [please leave us alone we want to be happy with out all of these negative, if you guys are really Austin Carlile fans then you'll be happy for us]

......never mind the social media.....

Man I can't help it, but think about Austin all the time he's just so great. Other than that I had a photoshoot with kellin, I get a phone call

.....phone...

~Lilly-hello

~kellin-are you ready to pick you up Lilly

~Lilly-yeah I'm just waiting here

~kellin-okay I'm on my way, I'll be there in 20mnts

I hung up the phone, and I went out side to find my brother nick, that he was washing his car.

I yell to nick "hey nick I'm going with kellin for a photoshoot okay"

he looks at me and yells back "okay Lilly just make sure that you're home at 3:00 because we're doing something"

I question him "what, what are you guys doing"

he looks at me and tried to wet me "don't you think about it, what are you guys doing"

he looks at me "don't you worry about it, oh look kellin, your ride is here" I go walking towards kellins car.

.......kellin starts to question me......

Kellin starts to bumble "Lilly, are you ready to get photoshoped"

I look at kellin weirdly "what, photosboped what are you talking about, I thought I'm in good shape for this photoshoot"

he mumbles "never mind that, how are you with Austin"

I smerk "dude have you looked at the comments on Facebook and on instagram, I just I have to get rid of that, but I'm doing great with him"

he looks at me "I did see that, if they were really austins fans then they will be happy for him, because he's dating a great girl"

I just got silent for a moment "I know kellin but I think that he's to perfect for me"