Haaaaaaa
I feel so fucking lonely. Having to walk all the way to the hospital, alone, following after other groups of my classmates, I cant bear it.
No, that's wrong. I can bear it. I did bear it, didn't I? It was like that the day before yesterday too, when BS was absent, and I had to walk to college(from the bus) on my own.
Its not that I'm unsociable, or am I? I do talk to lots of people, if not everyone. And I do know the other members of my unit, but, im not close enough to walk with them.
Story of my life, I bitch about not talking to anyone. When I am social, I bitch that im not as close to others. When I do make close friends, I bitch about them preferring others to my company. I just bitch and bitch and fucking bitch all the time.
Im just lonely, I get it. But... I dont even know if its my fault or not.
My mom fucking pulled my hair and tried to shove me out of the house. I knew she would bust her fuse if I continued to act out, but I can't help it! I do NOT need to go to the doctor. Especially not my college's hospital. She should know when to butt out of my life. When I refused, she just continued to get on my nerves and I exploded. I might have been rude, but it wasnt rude enough for her to lash out on me physically. She has no right to hurt me like that.
I ran out of the house, 20 minutes too early, to my busstop.
