Dear Brother,
You left when I was only young but I haven't forgotten you. You're still a massive piece in my life and you always will be. You're not dead. But I thought you were. I waited and waited for years for you to come home but you didn't.
I got my first boyfriend but you'd never know.
I fell out with my first best friend you'd never care.
I hated myself but you didn't care. All you wanted was to get as far away from me as possible.
I messaged you last year but you clearly wanted nothing to do with me.
I cried every night just wanting to see you again but deep down I knew if I was to disappear from this planet you wouldn't notice.
What hurt the most was that you missed all of those birthdays and christmases yet you didn't even care. You were happy by yourself.
I'm sorry I let you down and that you want nothing to do with me anymore.
You messed me around so many times yet you still seemed to not care.
But somehow you're the only one I wish I still had.
