the ramblings of a softhearted introvert

August 13th, 2018

When I lost you, it was like a nightmare come true. I felt I had no one else in my life to turn to, no one could ever replace, no one could be there for me like you. There's nothing I've felt deeper than the loss of you. It left my heart shattered when it was already broken in two from all the shit that I've gone though.

Sometimes I wake up, so excited to see you, to ask about your day and see your radiant smile, then I remember you're gone. The feeling of dread, sorrow and disbelief. It hits me like a wave, dragging me underwater and I struggle to breathe. I spend the day in bed, I sob because we'll never make more memories, my motivation in life was you.

You understood me when no one else did, you showed me the way, led me by the hand. Always listened, you were my best friend. Was a shoulder to cry on, gave me a bed to lie on, loved me like a mother and treated me like a friend.

It feels like a nightmare that's tragically come true. Can't stand the word cancer, it took you away. Believe me when I say I'll never get over the loss of you.