thousands of words

chapter one

Welcome to a one chapter book with over a thousand words! Well keep you updated and write in dates, also know that these are mostly all my speechs messages and poems jammed together for a sorta story thing. Also this is my work! And not a copy write, so I gladly ask for you to not copy my book! And no I did not come up with the tittle, so if you have a better tittle, put it in comments!

Silent,thats all i ask. is to be in a place where no sound can invade my thoughts. i want to cherish a place where no words escape from anothers lips, no yells or screams be heard by my ears. i want to sit in silence and enjoy it while im alive.

i cant help but keep to myself, i cant help but sit in silence, although the world around me blares with sound. it feels as though someone else runs my life, and my life is being torn, honestly i cant help but wounder if anyone even sees my pain, or hears the pleeas. does no one use their eyes? are those not for seeing? if those are what thus eyes are for, why cant they see my pain. my my do people not have ears? ears on each side of their head! are theseears they have deaf as well. for ears are there for hearing are they not? well why do you have ears for hearing an yet you never hear my cries pleasor shouts. its ike this world sees and hears only what they want t listen and see to. its like they block out everything that is not to them.

it seems so strange and weird, one day when you feel so alive, like a new born lamb who frolocks in the daring sunlight. but suddenly tides have changed, and the fleece of the lambs turned dark. many have asked me, pleaded with me, oh but you wouldnt understand. my fear is what you ask for, but when i answer you scoff and turn your head. yet little white lamb with the fleece which has not turned black, listen carefully. for theres more to my fear then darkness. darkness is the thing which can consume ones life, theres more to my word lonely then what meets your dear eyes. im scaed my pain will double, that people will leave.im scared of loosing another friend who is close to me.do you not know of this fear that swollows ou whole!? that twists your fate and trns you to despair?? the feeling of drowing down so deep in an ocean, when your clearlyon land. when you struggleto breath, no one will truly believe or know the meaning behind my fear. the feeling of which you are forever alone scared and confussed. no shouder to cry on, no blanketto cuddle in, no teddy to hold.you...your just alone, at the bottom of the sea, with nowhere to go....

6/9/17
all that there to life, i remer believing in angels waiting for the sun to break, waiting for the moon to make an eclipse. awaiting the moring star.
im loving this pain im loving to being abel to try, fighting with my life and finding no escape. i have some crazy thing that race in my mind. i could loss everything in this crazy world yet all that makes you beautiful is what makes us love the pain. so why do i even try?
i fight these unknown battles, i cry out into storms, hey baby look at us we are living life so well, hey look at me i can live on my own! i am my own person! i define myself! i amnot controlled by anyother one of my peers...and you have no control over me, you can no escape this vast reality.

when even if tears stream unto your face, and silent pleas escape your lips. a ghostly wave spreads across the town, i see it standing there, you cant turn away. i wont you to stay, help get rid of thesenightmares, why arent you suprised? i want to know your name. your the sul which blends with every other living thing! your reaching out your hand, and im just that stranger who wants to be your friend. cause even you could have been someone, but you let the demons inside your head! you let everyone else twist your dear dear memory, hey where are you from?

hey! can you even hear me? well just you wait and see the kind of person you can be, open your arms inhale my words, you have a book in your mind that has pages unturned, you have had a whole chapter unread, trust me dont even loose this hope just yet, you let them into your head.. you could have been someone instead, i see the light inside your chest, i see the hope in your eyes. i see the tides arent turned but i know that you can be someone .