Poems of Depression

Paranoid

I don't know what to do anymore,
I'm freaking out,
O my God, please help me,
I don't know what I'm about.

I don't know who I am,
I don't know what I want,
I know who I am,
I know what I want.

I don't understand myself,
I don't understand why I don't want to go on,
But I understand myself,
And I know why I don't want to go on.

I'm living in confusion,
I never have the same opinion on anything,
I'm in between reality and your society,
Please God, end this hell within.

My mind is constantly arguing with my mind, and I have no control over it,
I no longer can take multiple minds and 1 mouth,
Because of these constantly changing opinions, views and mindsets,
I can't find my way out of this cloud.

I can't believe what I see,
And I cant believe what I hear,
So how can I see the truth?
And how do I cope with this fear?

I know a little bit about the things behinds the scenes,
Not a lot of details, enough to just scare me,
And knowing I can't escape in a world ruled by they,
My only solution seems to go out and be free.