broken-(v)having giving up hope; despair
max's pov
i walked out crying. i couldnt see anya, but i know she was crying tsunamis. i got on my skateboard and just went. i didnt know where. i didnt care. all i wanted was to be gone.
i skated for about an hour, then stopped. i was downtown. i knew this place well. i went down an alleyway and just stood against the wall. i cried. tears. many,many tears. i slid down the white walls of a warehouse and buried my face in my hands. i reached for my bag and pulled out a cigarette. it calms me down. then i saw something sticking out of my bag. it was her jacket. she gave me it at the party a while back because i was cold. i just took it out and hugged it. it smelled like her. her sweet,cherry scent with a hint of peach. it felt like i was hugging her. just her. not the person who attempted to make me hurt. i didnt want to talk about my brother's situation right now. it's too much. i just buried my face into her jacket and cried for what felt like hours.
anya's pov
i just sat there in disbelief. did she just leave me? is this real life? it cant be. she knows i need her. she needs me. i need to go. i have to find her. its been an hour and i havent moved since she left. i grab my things, a pizza to go, and leave.
i walk for awhile. a long while.
anyabear02: max..please. let me talk to you. i need you.
madmax6: you obviously dont. why would you want a nobody with a sickness that has no cure?
anyabear02: because you mean something to me max. i love what you hate. you will get better, and i'll be with you through it all. i need to see you and help you get through this. i need you.i mean it.
madmax6: im downtown. if you cared enough, you would know where.
her alleyway. ive found her there many times. she goes there when she's asking for help but she wont show it. she spraypainted madmax on the walls. i care enough.
max's pov
i can hear footsteps coming closer to the quiet alleyway. its her. she stops when she sees me. i just look at her, desperately. she comes and sits beside me and hugs me. i hug back. i missed her. it felt like forever.
she glances at the ground and notices the many cigarette buds.
"i did this to you. im so sorry. i really am. i shouldnt have said anything. ive messed everything up and its just a disaster. i cant lose you. i cant lose my everything. you are my everything."
"i missed you." is all i could manage out of my mouth.
"i missed you." she says back. "i brought pizza since i know you havent eaten in at least a week."
"thanks." she was right.
she hands me a slice and i eat two more.
"hey..max?" she asks hesitantly
"yeah..?"
"i love you."
