The story of me

The Traditional Man

She is used to loneliness
The feeling of being surrounded by people but still so utterly alone
All she could hear was her own beating heart
Everyone around her not human beings but shadows
Soulless and constantly on their way – without her
But what surprised her was just how lonely she felt
When he was inside her
As he filled her and as he was giving her pleasure
She suddenly felt the loneliest she had ever felt
For she knew what came afterwards
A few minutes of tenderness
Then
"I need to go now"
Never had she thought that she would be lonely when she was not supposed to
How could she be lonely when she was connected with him?
When he so clearly adored her body and always hungrily sought it?
She so badly wanted to say "stay"
However, deep inside, she knew that she would lose him if she did
She knew she had a choice to make
To say the one word and loose him forever
Or to cherish the few precious moments they shared on the couch before the act
The act so intimate
But yet a duty
A human has a duty to make sure the body's desire is fulfilled
Her body wants his body
More than anything
Never has her body wanted another body so badly
Never has her body reacted that way towards another body
An enigma so strong that she thought she would faint the first time their bodies touched
And yet, when he is most buried in her
Her loneliness arrives
He disappears
Gone is his sounds of pleasure
Her own sounds a mere whisper
All she can her is loneliness shouting at her
"He will leave.
He will always leave.
You will be alone.
Again."
While he is pumping inside her, her mind is a battlefield
A battle between loneliness and her inner empowered self
Her empowered self who knows he is no good for her
Only his body
Her empowered self wants the loneliness to go
To make her feel the way she deserves to feel
Adored and truly wanted
Because he can make her feel like that
Her empowered self knows that
It is an acknowledged fact that today; women can demand sex as much as men can – without being too attached
But loneliness has other plans
Loneliness wants her to know that she will forever be alone
That her body is only a tool for his own desire
A way to satisfy him; the traditional man