Oranges in the Winter; G.D.

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I stared at the ceiling for 30 minutes wondering if I should go to school and actually put effort into dressing. 

I mean it's Friday and I haven't been to school in around two months, only some Fridays or Mondays.

I wanted to see Grayson.

I grabbed the homework I did and put it neatly in my binder. I'm pretty organized.

Not mentally though.

I slipped on my blue camouflage pants, black Thrasher T-shirt and basic black and white old skool vans, grabbed my phone and earbuds and started my 10 minute walk to school.

I blasted old Kanye through my earbuds. 

"Strange fruit...hanging...from the poplar trees...from the poplar trees..."

I thought of myself being on those poplar trees instead of them. The noose loosely hanging my body in the warm summer breeze as I slowly stop trying to search for any way out of my demise as a human in this world.

My feet stopped in front of the big red bricked school. 

"HOME OF THE BENGAL TIGERS!" the sign read 

I wanted to turn back but I'm already here and late. 

I signed in and started walking to my 3rd period out of my 7.

I didn't want to be here and my heart was constantly telling me I should keep going, but my mind was telling me to go back home and hide under the covers and wait for Grayson to save me.

Grayson.

I forgot about him.

My love.

Everything that happened came rushing back.

I stood in front of my class and just thought about him.

That's when the door to classroom swung open and a teacher I've never seen popped up

"Hello, I'm the substitute for Mr. McEllery an-"

"I'm Amaryllis Linfray, I'm gonna go take my seat and here's my pass." I walked past and all eyes were on me.

I felt one specific pair.

Grayson's.

It was the only free seat so I sat next to him and everybody returned to their convos.

"Hey." I said.

"Hi." he responded  monotonically.

"About this morning I-" 

"Amaryllis, it's fine. Just forget about. Forget I even tried."

I nodded and got to work.

I knew what I needed to do. 

"Grayson, follow me."

"Wh-"

"Just come on." I persuade.

He followed and we went to the area near the lunchroom.

I walked ahead making sure this went the way I planned.

We stood against opposite walls from each other but facing on another.

"Amaryllis, what do you want?"

I swallowed my pride and walked closer to him.

I slowly put my lips on his. 

My whole body felt like it burst. 

I could feel he was a little shocked, but fell into it.

He carefully held my waist and softly pushed me towards his warm body as I wrapped my arms around his neck.

We let go simultaneously and I looked at him in a way I never have.

"Grayson I'll never forget. The day I forget will be never. You're my lifeline."