His Eyes.

-10-

Once we got back to H's apartment I go and lay in his bed with Link. I can hear H come in and I pretend I'm asleep. He climbs on top of me and tickles me everywhere. I start to tickle him back and he pins my arms down, leans down and kisses me. I sit up and Liam sits in front of me.

H- Liam
B- Baylee

H- "When were you going to tell me you could sing and only 109 thousand people know about it before I did?"

B- "I have a second channel H. I sing and vlog over there and play mc on my main channel."

H- "Will you show me?"

B- "I actually have to record a new video if you wanna sing with me?"

H- "You're joking right? I can't sing"

B- "okay fine. You can watch I guess"

He smiles like a lost puppy who just found home. He was being so cute. We go and sit by a little pond near his apartment and he hits record.

"Hey guys, I'm going to be doing a cover of 'Kat Dehlia I Think Im In Love' (Song above) I hope you guys enjoy." While singing, I'm looking at H who's standing behind the camera in awe. I blush every time he smiles at me. After I get done singing, I look down at my guitar and when I look back up, Liam comes over to me and just kisses me.

B- "You know I'm still recording right?"

H- "You can edit it out"

B- "Maybe I wanna keep it in there"

H- "You can't!"

B- "And why not."

H- "Because I haven't asked you to be my girlfriend yet."

B- "Yet??"

H- "I should stop the recording now before I say anything else embarrassing."

He turns and says to the camera "edit that out BayleeJay."

We pick up everything and head back inside. As we're walking I was thinking of a way to keep his kiss in the video but hide his face as much as I can. I don't think the camera got his face till he turned around. That'd be so cute to put at the end of the video. I asked Liam what he thought of my singing.

H- "Bay.. it was amazing, I had no idea you had vocals of an angel."

B- "I don't"

H- "Okay, maybe not a angel, maybe a saint."

B- "Stop H, you're making me blush."

H- "And I'm loving every little bit of it."

I look at him and try to be serious but he starts to mimic my look.

B- "H, I'm being serious right now."

H- "So am I. You're really amazing in everything you do. Why don't you join a singing competition or something?"

B- "You really think I'm good enough to actually win or just make a fool of myself?"

H- "Doesn't matter if you win Bay. There are producers there would sign you in a heart beat."

B- "But what if they hate me?"

H- "BayleeJaye. Listen to me. They're going to love you no matter what you think. "

B- "H, stop using my full first name. I hate it."

H- "Well, I love it and I love you...."

My jaw dropped. Did H just tell me he loved me for the first time? We aren't even together. I wasn't sure what to say back to him. Did he mean to tell me he loves me? H walks into his bedroom and I sit on his couch. "Should I go tell him I love him too" I kept asking myself. "No, he probably just meant in general... right?" I asked myself. I get up and walk into H's bedroom. "I love you too" I kept repeating in my head.. "Just four words, its easy" my mind kept telling me but, I didn't listen. I look at H with a tear in my eye and I just left. I walked home.

"If H really did love me, then why am I walking home by myself? Wouldn't he come after me? Why did he just let me leave without saying anything? He know's my past and he know's that stuff like this scares me. Which means he didn't mean it... right? H isn't the kind of guy who would want to hurt someone, or put them in pain. This is silly, I should just go back and tell him how I feel." I felt crazy having a conversation with myself. I smile and turn around to walk back to H's place. I get in eye sight of it, and I can see him getting in his car and leaving. "Okay so maybe he didn't mean it." I could feel my heart aching.

Once I get on my street I could see someone knocking on my door. It was Liam. I could hear him 'talking to me' through the door. I guess he didn't know I wasn't home yet. I walk up behind him and just listen to him. "Baylee I'm sorry. I couldn't hold it back anymore. After watching you sing that song to me, and the feelings I have for you, I just had to let you know how I felt. When you looked at me before you left, with that tear in your eye. It killed me. That look broke my heart and it made me cry. I should've came after you when you left. I'm sorry. Baylee open up, please. I have your phone. You left without it. You got a text message from Shelby. Baylee.." I see him holding my phone. I say his name, he turns around "Jesus you scared the crap outta me." I say sorry and hold my hand out for my phone, he places it in my hand. "Baylee I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't ever want to see you cry like that ever again." He hugged me.

Am I going to forgive him that easily? How could I forgive someone who made me question everything. Someone I opened myself up to, I let him in and he hurt me. If he meant to or not, it hurt. I don't know if i want to go through that again or not.

"Go home H" I said as I walked into my apartment.