Me Before You (Jackson Wang)

New beginnings

He askes "Why are you so mad?"

I get defensive, "I'm not! You are. You just hate that fact that I am always around."

"Yes, you pop up here and there! Everywhere"

"Thats why I left. I sacrificed my life for you. My whole life and all you can say to me is you hate seeing me? I wish that I would have never met you on the train. I thought that, that day changed both of our lives but I was wrong. You still selfish and arrogant."

"Yes because you left me first."

"To save us."

"No you left me to experience the pain of not having you around. The pain of not being about to have you in my arms. Get out." By this time I'm in tears. I walk down the streets of busan dressed in 1920s clothes, I can't help the heartache and stop. I bend down and cry in my knees. I don't know how long it was before the director came to get me up.

"CUTT!!! Thats was amazing! Its like I could feel the pain of a broken heart." I come back to myself and turn on my cute sweet face. "Thank you Mr Wu, I try my best."

He wraps up, "Okay everyone a 15 min break." I run off set to my van and lay down in the back seat.

Eui my manager came in after me worried, "I told him that you don't feel well and I'm taking you back." I quickly sit up.

"Please give me a couple minutes and Ill be fine. Thats all I need."

"But this is so similar to what happened 3 years ago. When are you going to move on?"

I stare out the window, whispering, "When I take my last breath."

I get out and finish up my scenes for the day. Driving to the YG building, I go inside to have my monthly meeting at YG with the publisher and investor. 

It's the same thing everytime. I'm making them money and putting in my time and I also get to have my freedom and my music which was the agreement. I do still get asked why I left DayDream. The excuse was my family member was sick. I went on hiatus for a year which is not all a lie. I quit in my griveing and joined YG for acting. The day I had to leave was the hardest day of my life. As soon as the Japan tour was over I went home to my sick Grandmother. I confessed our relationship with Jackson and told JYP that I wanted to leave. He was very upset and was sad to lose me but also understood. This wasn't the first time this has happened.

I got my 5th role and 1st leading role. Acting with Ji Soo he is an amazing actor and I love that it's Sci fi and an Idol drama. Amber from FX, V from BTS , Joy from Red Velvet and Siwon from Super Junior is also in Stargazing

Stargazing. A drama about Jisoo character who is an immortal being who has no memory of his life. One day he touches my character and a random memory appears. My character is raised by a single father who works alot and is never home. She sees this man who look just like the one who saved her life as a child. Coming to find out Jisoo character is a fallen angel/Demon who has to live through each and every death of my character which neither of us remember. The closer we get the more puzzle pieces we can put together. Joy and V are other fallen angels. Siwon is an angel sent to protect me and is the brother of Jisoo. Amber is my best friend.

I'm super excited about this drama. I only take dramas that I would watch myself. I am living and breathing this part.

On my way home, I get a text from my oppa wanting to hang out with me. We surprisingly grew up together.

Going to the cafe shop, I get our own spot. Seeing Junhoe, I wave him down.

"Oppa!"

"Hey little sis." He sits down and the lady brings his coffee, I preordered for him.

"Thank you." I sip my coffee seeing what June wanted to talk to me about.

"Date me." I bust out laughing. June is like a big brother to me.

"Wow you got jokes today."

"You're still not over him are you?"

"And dating you will make me get over him?"

"You could try."

"We can't date within the company. Thats a well known rule."

"But your a solo artist and actress."

"Who will most likely date an actor. Look I love how much you care about me but I'm  focused on my acting right now. Oh speaking of that, the premiere party is next month. You're coming with me right?"

"Is that even a question? Ill be there." We've had to shut down so many dating rumours cause we would go to each other concerts and fan meets making fun of each other. One time, I said my only love was my bestie Amber and she played along.

I say excited, "Great! How work been?"

"Comeback is around the corner but the job of an idol is never finished."

"So true."