light headed | boyxboy

veintiseis|26|vingt-six

lolly pop.

the word finally comes to mind as i think of levi coffs days later. levi coffs and his raspberry chupetin, his soft facial features, his gentle embrace... and the fact that he does not answer his phone when i call as promised.

i find myself three weeks into school without really knowing time is going by. the dilapidated buildings of london and low hanging clouds begin to feel less intimidating. with the oncoming cold season people smile at me on the street. teachers greet me in the halls and students friends with theo are friends of mine. already we have begun to receive assignments and exam notices, which i do my best to study for.

"so how did you learn english?", evening lawson sips on her water. her arm is slung casually around theodore's waist and she wears a peachy shade of matte lipstick. we sit on a bench outside this lunchtime, soaking up the unexpected sunlight we've been blessed with for the past two days.

"him and his friends wanted to swear without anyone knowing they were swearing. then he continued teaching himself other words", miller answers for me. i kick him and he laughs. the sound of miller's laugh is of pure, light joy. when he laughs i see it more in his eyes than hear it from his mouth.

"is that true?", jaiden raises his dark eyebrows, smiling. i nod reluctantly. miller knows this because we've been texting a lot lately. this is mainly to distract myself from worrying about my audition and "training" with levi (who didn't even accept my snap chat request).

"i was seven. problem was, all my teachers knew what the word "motherfucker" meant", i say with a straight face.

they laugh and i try not to think about mijas and my childhood friends. london still does not feel like home. instead, i wonder whether levi will ever call me back.

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happy late new year, everyone ! i'm off to new zealand today, so no chapters published for a week. but i'll have time to write !

what was your favourite moment of 2017? mine was publishing this and interacting with you x