Winter Tricks: Lost In Time | Book 1 of Winter Tricks |

Session Eight:Heartbroken

______Session 8_______

"What are you working on?"Steve asks,as he enters the room.Ot was about time to go my session.Since I only had 3 more to go.I decide today was the day I would finally talk about losing Bucky.

"Remember that place I bought last month?"

"The abandoned building downtown?Yes."He replies.

"I'm turning it into a place where I can test my powers,and the limits to then."I tell him,"Also,I will let others test their 'super' powers and abnormal abilities there.Im just working out fixing it up and employees."

"Where are you getting all the money for this?"He asks,looking at my blue prints.

"SHEILD is funding it."

"As much as I love hearing about this,"He says,"We need to go."

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"I am going to stay, alright?"Steve asks,while grabbing a chair.

"Hello,Everyone!"Sarah chirps,"How are you?"

Everyone goes around telling how they feel,but all I can think about it what I am going to say.In a way,My body goes numb,but yet I can feel as if I am about to put down the boulder I've been holding for months now.

"Grace,"Sarah says,"Do you have anything to share today?"

"Actually,yes."I reply,"I think it is time I talked about it.Time to get it off my chest."I sigh deeply,frowning."I lost Bucky in 1944."

"Grace,are you sure you want to talk about this?"Steve asks.

"It has been pushed away for a while now,"I tell him,"It's time."He nods,and takes my hand in support.

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"Grace..."A voice behind me says,I turn to see Peggy.

"Hey,are they back?"I ask,hoping to see Steve and Bucky.I had to tell Bucky something really important.

"Yeah."Peggy replies,frowning."Steve wants to talk to you privately."She walks out the room and Steve walks in.

Tears streamed down his face,frowning as he avoided eye contact. Every time he tried to look at me,more tears filled his eyes and he shakes his head.He didn't have to say anything,I knew.It wasn't my current condition that had been bothering me,it was a sensational in my heart that I knew something had gone wrong.

My hands fall to my stomach."No."I gasp."Don't you dare tell me he's..."

"Grace,"He croaks,"I couldn't reach him in time."

"This can't be happening."I turn away,clenching on to my stomach"He can't be."

"He wanted me to tell you something."Steve speaks.

"He can tell me himself because he can't be dead."I retort,"This is just another dream."

"I'm sorry."Tears streamed down both of our faces."Bucky wanted me to tell you he loves you and that he is sorry he couldn't keep his promise."

I felt as if a bullet had been shot through my heart.

I run into Steve's arms,needing the comfort of my best friend.

An hour later,still sobbing,I feel asleep with my head in Steve's lap.My hands only stomach,thinking about how I was gonna raise a child without Bucky.

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"What happened to the child?"Kendra asks.

"A day before I was teleported here,My doctor told me I had a miscarriage."

After everyone left,It was just Steve and I in the room.

"Why didn't you tell me?"Steve asks,"I could of helped you through the two months I was there."

"I don't know."I tell him."I was in too much pain ,I guess."

"I looked through all your records,medical and all."He says,"There is no trace of a pregnancy."

"I got Howard to cover it up."

"Did anyone else know?"Steve asks,I nod."Who?"

"The one who thought I was and made me go to the doctor when you and Bucky went on the mission."I tell him."My doctor,Howard Stark, and Peggy Carter were the only one who knew.She went to every appointment with me during those three months.Howard had been the one to get a private doctor.Peggy was the one who held me when I lost the baby,when I lost the only thing I had left of what Bucky and I created over our 10 years together.I couldn't keep him alive,let alone our child."I burst into tears.

Steve hugs me tightly,"It wasn't something you could control."

"I lost my baby!"I cried,"Then the next day I'm in a totally different place in a totally different time."

"You would of have been a great mother."Steve assures me,"Bucky would have proud to be a dad.I wish you could have told him.I wish you could have had him during all this."He kisses my forehead."I wish it would have been me that had fallen off the train."

"Steve..."My voice cracks,"Don't talk like that.I need you just as much I needed him.I'd be just as lost."

"I love you,Tricks."

"I love you too,Stripes."