I can explain- A Matthew Espinosa fanfic

"Mom, I'm leaving!"

"Alright, have fun!"

Off to school. Great, just another place to get judged for my crazy insane Magcon addiction! I can't even understand what it is about those boys that makes me so crazy!

Their looks, their actions, their smiles, their existence. Everything about them is perfect!

My mom doesn't except my addiction. Nobody does, which doesn't make sense to me. There's nothing wrong with it, it's just boys. They don't know I exist, but hopefully they will eventually. I live in a big-city that's kind of known, but with my luck, it will never happen.

I guess I should introduce myself. I'm Grace. Grace Lansing. I'm 16 and a half! More than a half. I'm 1 day younger than Matt. So, my birthday is July 8th, 1997. Obviously, I'm obsessed with Magcon. My world revolves around it. It's all I think about. My mom thinks it's the reason I fail in school, but I don't care.

I wish people accepted my addiction. I don't really have any friends. Only 1, Hailey. And I'm pretty sure she just takes pity on me. She never really talks to me. We've texted a couple times, but not really. We don't hang out, ever. We just sit together at lunch and stuff.

When I arrived at school, I was already getting pushed around. Into lockers, into people. It wasn't intentional, I was basically invisible. Nobody noticed I was there. Honestly, I liked it that way. When I was independent nobody cared.

But of course, only 1 group of girls noticed me. The populars. Amber and her posey. They bully me everyday. Ever since people found out about "the incident" they've bullied me.

Now I have you wondering, what's "the incident". When I was a freshman, I was dating this guy. His name was Blane. I thought he was this perfect guy! He was sweet, and kind, and he acted like he cared. Then one day, he went around school telling people that I had sex with a girl right after I gave him an STD. I thought right when I heard the story, my life is over. I attempted suicide twice, I was in the hospital for weeks. I got sent to a mental hospital, and I had cuts from head to toe. Nothing felt right. People still remind me of my story. It's something that will never leave me.

"Where's your lover girl?" Amber always teases me because she believes the story. She thinks I'm gay. Everyone does. That wasn't true. I turned around from my locker and whispered "just walk away and nobody will get hurt" she laughed at me and then threw a punch right to my lower lip.

I ran away. I always do. I get scared. Usually I run into the locker room chip off a piece of wood from the bunch an make myself some fresh cuts on my wrists. They made me feel better. They made the pain go away. That's what I go through everyday. I don't feel pain, I don't feel anything.

That day, I came home from school with a fat, busted lip. I walked in crying. My mom didn't care. That's when I remembered, it's my sisters first birthday. Yup, May 25th. My mom said she had something for me, it was probably just some shampoo or something stupid. That's when I realized, the last day of school was tommorow!

Living hell would end tommorow! I was done! I ran to my room posted some stuff on Insta, and watched Vines. Only Magcon boys and edits but still.

A few hours later was dinner. "Grace! It's time to eat!" Dinner was all fancy because of Mia's birthday. She's all my parents care about anymore. My mom said that after dinner we needed to talk.

Great, another lecture. It always is. I get yelled not for not being "family involved" and then I get sent to room, and cut more. She probably doesn't care. Ever since she found out she was pregnant with Mia, I'm just another mouth to feed like those kids in Africa.

Dinner was finally over. I went into the kitchen, to see my mom had an envelope in her hands. Probably an application for a boarding school. She started talking. "I know, you probably hate this family! I understand, really I do. But I feel terrible, and I want to make it up to you" she started to pull something out of the envelope. I wasn't sure what it was, but I was sure it wasn't anything that would make me forgive her.

She finally got them out. She told me to close my eyes. So I did. After what seemed like hours, I finally got to see. I opened my eyes to see her hands behind her back. Her eyes were watery and she had a begging smile of forgiveness on her face. She pulled her hands out from behind her, she held them in front of her. I saw,

***A/N*** first chapter cliff hanger! This is TOTALLY made up! It's not based off of anything. I hope you enjoy it! If you have any questions or want to be in the story, message me on here or you can DM me on Instagram! My account name on here is @matts_only_bae and my Instagram name is @meganespinosa_. I also have another fan-fic called "The Magcon Family Story". If you have time, go check it out! Thanks for reading!! Have a lovely day😘 and continue reading! Xoxo💋 -Megan