I can explain- A Matthew Espinosa fanfic

The day before leaving

I was feeling tingly inside. I wasn't sure why, but I did. I felt like I could just picture me standing next to Matt and taking our picture. Cameron seeing my scars and telling me to be strong. Nash looking down at me because he's so tall. Me staring at Taylor's bright colors and beautiful face. Hayes holding my waist and posing for a picture with me.

Everything in my life was still. The world could have been spinning at 10,000 mph, but I wouldn't notice. My only thoughts were about those boys. Talking to me. Smiling at the camera while I took our pictures. These boys I've dreamt about for almost 2 years, were smiling with me. Because of me.

That made me smile. My mom walked in and saw my ear to ear smile. She asked me what it was for. She knew I don't smile much. I told her about my daydream. She was excited that I was excited. I'm glad we're getting closer. I needed my mother.

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I had all my bags packed and ready to go. I was so prepared for this trip even though I still had like a week and a half before we actually went. I couldn't wait for that day. Well, days. Me and Matts birthdays! I want to get him something, I'm just not sure what! I'll probably get him a Chipotle gift card, I know how much he loves his Chipotle! I just hope he has something special for his birthday.

I swear the time passed like a turtle on super glue! Every minute was each second. I couldn't sleep, I was to excited. Everything made it's way back into my head once again and my mind was wide awake. My eyes wanted to be closed but it's like my mind wouldn't let me sleep! I started watching Vines of all the boys. I started with Matt of course, and then Cam.

One vine in particular stood out to me. It was his motivation one where said "

Always remember to smile because your beautiful just the way you are.". It stood out because nobody made me feel that way. It's like the boys are the only ones who can really change me. That changed my views on a lot of things.

Everyone is beautiful. Even the woman labeled the ugliest woman alive, she's beautiful. Define beautiful. With the way my school defines it is pretty much fake. 10 pounds of makeup, booshy designer bull-crap, player, dresses up and is "popular". Cameron's definition is real. Everyone is beautiful no matter what you wear, or look like, or dress like. It's all about you.

These boys have influenced me more than my family ever has. Yes, my family supports me. But when was the last time my mom gave me real advice? Oh yeah, before my little sister. I'm really hoping we become closer though. I want a real daughter-mother relationship. Not this joke we have.

I swear the clock is going backwards. I started this Vine stuff at 9:45 and it's only 10:23. Could this night get any longer? I just want to go to Oregon and meet the boys! That's all I'm asking!

Finally, it was midnight and I decided it was time to get some sleep. I closed my eyes and tried. I tried so hard. I opened my eyes and it 12:10. I need to try harder. By the time I did, it was 1:30 and I had to wake up in the next 8 hours. By the time my body was physically asleep it was 3.

My mom came in my room at around 9:30. "Grace, honey, it's time to wake up. We need to leave in the next 30 minutes." My eyes shot open and my smile grew bigger by the second. I got ready and hopped in the car. Let's have an adventure.

**A/N** YAY! An update! My chapters got deleted so I'm having to re-type all the ones that got deleted. Thanks hackers😒 I hate people sometimes. Anyways, I'm really excited for Grace to Magcon! There's a lot of stuff that happens there and it gets serious. Grace breaks down when her mom tells her the big news. What brings her back? Read more to find out! Thanks for reading and don't forget to vote and tell your friends! Read my other books and follow me @/matts_only_bae. Thanks boo boo's -Megan💋