Blurbs

Attractive

It seems I always fall for the people that are way out of my league of bench-sitters. When I was younger it never occurred to me that I was unattractive. I had "boyfriends" and I was basically the leader of my group of friends. We were all happy. We didn't care about who's face looks like a minefield full of acne. We didn't care who had buck teeth or short hair versus long hair. We were just people.

Now I'm faced with my impending ever lasting virginity that I will hold to my grave. It's not that big of deal, but it's not just that. I'm always going to be ugly. I won't always have the acne. But I'll still have my fat, my loud voice, my ugly vocabulary, and my acne free yet ugly face. I'll be lonely. I'll watch my friends grow up and get married and have little crotch critters and I'll still be the girl that watches tv. Alone. Like always.

I'll have a good career. I'll have a good home. I'll have a bed that feels too big for one person. But I'll sleep in the middle, make it feel like there's no more room to fill. Fuck, I mean I'm probably gonna be so fat I fill up the entire fucking bed so I guess it doesn't matter!

I will always be the lowest end of the food chain. While others have lives and a family all because of how they look I'll be sitting alone eating food and waiting for the newest season of shameless to come on Netflix. But whatever, why be fucked, when you can look fucked up?!