GUSTAKHIYAAN (A Manan Story)

NINETEEN

"Aaah ! My head !"I winced as the unbearable pain in my head made my eyes squint again.

Why is my mattress so hard ?

I clutched my head with one hand and opened my eyes.

Bhagwaan ji Ye Kia hai ?

I traced the hard mattress on which I was sleeping when my eyes shot opened.

Numbness casted my senses seeing Manik sleeping on his tummy beneath me.

With a jerk I moved back and my lips quivered seeing our clothes on the floor. 

Kal raat Kia hua ?

I removed the blanket from my laps and a gasp escape my mouth seeing blood stains on the bed sheet.

A tear of contriteness spout down my cheek and I palmed my mouth refraining the loud bulbs which threat to escape from it.

I bit my palm to control my cries while silent tears kept crawling down my cheeks.

Ye kia hogya humse Manik !

I glanced at Manik who was sound asleep beside me and more tears fell from my eyes.

Gathering my shivering body I stood up and wore my clothes and in next moment I was out of his room ,running upstairs hysterically.

I locked my room and ran towards washroom.

Tearing my clothes apart I stood infront the mirror.

Another fat tear cascaded down my cheek as I traced the red love bites all over my body which reflected in the mirror.

"Nhi ! No this can't happen ! Ye nhi ho sakta! Hum Ye nhi kar sakte! NO !"I cried while throwing bathroom accessories lying there on glass slab.

"Ye Kia hogya humse Bhagwaan ji! Ye Kia hogya humse!" I murmured and palmed my face.My hiccups echoed in the washroom and I walked towards the shower cabinet which was beside the bath tub.

Turning on the faucet I sat underneath and wrapped my arms around my knees.

The warm water kept plodding down my body  while my tears continuously kept rolling down my cheeks.

I rested my cheek on my knees and sat there torpid.

Phir ek gustaakhi hogayi humse Bhagwaan ji ! Aap Kyon kar rahe ho aisa mere sath ! Main kis mun se apni maa k samne jaongi!
Maine armaan ko bhi dhoka diya ! I cheated on him !Ye kiya hogya Bhagwaan ji ! Ye Kia hogya!

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"Oh god ! Mera sar! Yaar why do you drink Manik when you can't handle!" I sat on the bed with my forehead in my palms.

"Di ! Black coffee !" I yelled with half closed eyes but no answer came back.

"Di !" I shouted again but still no answer came.