Holding On To You

Chapter Six

The next evening, Kol stood in front of the gates of the St. Anne's church once again. This time he felt nervous to go inside because he didn't know what to expect. He knew that he should have sooner, but couldn't make himself complete the journey. He held in his hand was a cup of cookie dough ice cream hoping it would give him step in the right directions with her as he bid her goodbye. Never had saying goodbye to someone had been so hard for Kol because no one had ever gotten under his skin like Davina had in the short time he known her. All he did know, that he did not want her to hate him; maybe that was why he having such trouble entering the place. He had been a vampire for a very long time and tonight was the first time he ever truly felt as if he was a monster.

Feeling slightly disgusted with himself for the his brief moment of weakness, Kol forced himself to go through the gates and into the church. Soon he found himself standing in front of the close door of the attic, taking a deep breath he knocked on the door. Why was he feeling so nervous for? What if she didn't want to see him? He could hear the gentle padding of her feet on the floor as she walked and after what felt like forever the door opened revealing her angelic face with her hair held half way up with a rhinestone hair clip.

"Kol," Davina smiled gently her voice was sweet. "Come in." She said.

"I hope I am not intruding," He said holding up the ice cream as he entered her room. "I brought you something."

"Ooh," She said as Kol stood memorized was the roundness of her lips. "And you even got my favorite. How did you know?" She took the ice cream from him using the spoon that was stuck in the dessert bringing it to her mouth. "Yum." She sighed and turned to see Kol standing in front of the window staring out to the city as if his mind was somewhere else. "Are you okay?"

"What?" He asked tearing his eyes away from the view to her.

"You seem distracted," She replied. "What is on your mind?"

"A lot of things," Kol confessed. "Don't worry about me, Darling. How are you?" He asked as he took in her beautiful face searching for any signs of distressed.

"I am dealing," She said as she took another bite of ice cream before setting it down. "I couldn't fight back." Davina sighed looking at her hands. "I never felt so helpless."

"That was a dirty trick of them to do," He nodded as he agreed breaking his gaze before turning back to the window. Davina bit her lip as she tried to figure out what to do. There was something wrong.

"Kol," Davina murmured softly. "What's wrong?"

"I'm just thinking about last night," Kol answered not moving his gaze. "I never liked killing witches. What you must think of me." He muttered in disgust.

"Kol," She said moving forward. "I-" She started to say but was cut off by Kol.

"I am so sorry," Kol said turning to her. "Killing them like that in front of you."

Davina didn't know what to say. All day she was wondering if she saw him again what to say to him and he was looking at her as if he was expecting her to hate him. His eyes were clouded making them look stormy as she could tell there was something else bothering him before he them to the floor. She didn't know him all that well, but anyone could see it. One thing she did know if that would not be standing here today if had he not saved her and she couldn't be more grateful for anyone in her life at the moment. She did the only thing that came to her mind. Davina closed the gap between them rapidly throwing her arms tightly around his middle her head laying on his chest. She could feel him tense at her actions but she didn't let go. "Thank you." She whispered. "Thank you for everything."